There seems to be a running misconception about me. It’s said that I hold anger and hate for my ex-husbands and spend all my time and energy on those feelings. It’s been said I dwell on the hurt and physical damage they’re caused during the time I knew them. Like I said a lot of misconceptions. Do I remember the hurt and damage? Sure, I’d have to be made of stone not to remember. Do I let my past rule my life? No. Do I dwell on the past? Hell no. I don’t have time or the inclination to do so. Thirty eight years have passed since my first bad judgment decision was made for a partner in life and a quarter of a century since the second. I’m fairly certain I’m over it. Truth be told, I feel the same way about them as I do about dirt. While my past has been instrumental in what I am today, I survived it. I grew. I became. I wouldn’t be the same person if anything, even one simple little thing, had been different. I have far too many goals and aspirations to fill my time and thoughts with people from my past. I don’t have time nor the inclination to ponder what people who are no longer in my life are doing or thinking. They and others may wish I felt differently and hope I thought about them a lot, or allow their less than admirable behaviors fill my days with angst, but if they think like that, that’s something they alone have decided to waste their energy on. Not me. It makes me wonder who it is that can’t really move on and can’t get over the past. My days are filled with children, art, reading, writing and many, many other enjoyable things. I relish every single day that I wake to a new morning. I’m very grateful that I am in a situation where I can explore my creativities and enjoy the laughter of children, and love of family and friends. Life evolves. I have evolved with it and will continue to do so far after I leave this earthly shell. When people continue to pull me into their daily thoughts and wag their lounges and gossip, all it does is assure to the world that I shall be immortal. Move on and move forward. Get on with your lives. Find a hobby. Read a book. Above all, let it go, people. Let it go.
Posted on: Thu, 06 Jun 2013 21:12:04 +0000
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