These past 4 days or so have been really tough for me. Ill have several hours a day where Im feeling good so I try to do things around the house, with the kids, outside, or in the barn. But then, just a short time later, Ill be eating a snack to take a pain pill and lie down. Case is having a really rough time too. Hes getting all 4 of his eye teeth in at once so hes been extremely unhappy. Even with meds and giving him things to chew on, he still just cries nearly nonstop. Im not supposed to be picking him up or lifting him, which I havent been, but its hard to not want to just cuddle with him and try to make him feel better. Earlier, my mom was trying to get him calmed down to go to sleep. He had finally quit crying and was calm, so I said let me take him now and have him sleep in bed with me. I thought it would give me a chance to snuggle and spend some time with him without him sitting on my belly or kicking me or whatever. Usually he loves to go night night with me. Not tonight. He didnt want any part of it. So, then he was wiggling and rolling all over me and squishing my sore, incision spots. I had to have my mom come get him and basically start all over with getting him calmed down. He has his follow up appointment in the morning on his chipped tooth. Im hoping the dentist may be able to tell us of something we havent tried yet that will help him feel better. We are getting ready for our online baby pig sale this Thursday so B has been busy with taking pictures and having people coming and going to see them in person all day, every day for a week or more now. My mom has had to help out a lot with the kids, driving (not really looking to get a DUI on these pain meds), fixing dinner, giving baths, etc. I know Im following doctors orders and that Im not supposed to be trying to do much, but I hate feeling so helpless. I also hate how anything I have done or any illness that I get, takes like 3 times longer to recover from. My body just doesnt have the energy or resources to fight it all at once and heal quickly like a normal person. I start treatment with my new chemo, Abraxane, Friday morning. Im hoping that Ill be feeling a lot better by then. This just sounds absurd to say, but I am so ready to start this chemo. I havent had any treatment since the end of August. Im scared to know how much things have progressed since then, so Im ready to start attacking these cancer cells hard core to get things back under control. Chemo works by targeting the fast growing cancer cells in your body. The faster the cancer cells mutate, the more effective the chemo will be. However, chemo doesnt just kill fast growing cancer cells. It also attacks all other fast growing cells. This is why so many people have digestive issues like nausea, chemo brain, neuropathy in fingers and toes, and hair loss. The longer youre on chemo or the more kinds youve had, the more youre body may become more resistant to things like hair loss. That is why you may notice more people with Stage 4 usually have their hair. We also do more targeted therapies to keep our bodies from feeding the cancer cells. My kind is fed from hormones. This is why we decided to remove my ovaries. Now that my body is no longer making those hormones, hopefully more of the cancer cells will starve. I wont know about whether or not Ill lose my hair again until about 2 weeks after treatment. I obviously hope I dont, but I also know that its just a side effect I may have to endure again. Please pray for a great week. Hopefully we can get some answers and advice from the dentist tomorrow. Were praying that our online sale Thursday night as well as the off-farm bidding that well do this weekend go great. Also, Fridays treatment needs to give these cancer cells a swift kick in the arse! Hope you all have a great week as well!
Posted on: Tue, 21 Oct 2014 02:25:46 +0000
Trending Topics
Recently Viewed Topics
© 2015