Third, from last post, I have something very personal to disclose to all of you, because of the seriousness of the matter, the disclosure will be without details and somewhat vague and done so only to protect me and my privacy. I apologize for not answering my phone, text messages, and emails, and I will continue screening all communications this way moving forward because of the nature of the illness and its complexity. It has been a very difficult, strenuous, and life-altering summer. All of you know that I am a fighter with a huge heart, and I have had to fight for everything since I was a little boy. I have lost many times in my life, if not most of it. I know what it is to be a loser, I know because I come from the gutter. I came from nothing, and like Mr. James M., everyone gave up me, even my entire "family." I mention this because I am fighting once again, I am alone on this one, without anyone or support, because this particular opponent is very good. I have been challenged so many times, but I can admit that this opponent is the most difficult I have ever encountered in my life. The opponent is myself. That being said, I have seen 5 experienced and successful doctors, I have done countless examinations, and these vampires have taken plenty of blood from me, and I have yet to get complete answers. What is acknowledged is that I am showing symptoms of various illnesses. My health has severely deteriorated in the last two months, my body is attacking itself, and I am showing signs of possible organ failure. I am bed-ridden some days and other days I am slowly moving by. There has been rapid weight-loss so my appearance as changed dramatically as well, many of you would not recognize me today. Because of the complexity of my health concerns, and the toll that this sickness has taken on my body and mind, and due to doctors orders and recommendations, I am forced not to return to my graduate studies at George Mason University. I am looking at 6 months to a year or longer is what the Docs are saying to remedy my health issues. I will be back. The only thing I come with is Karma. Be mindful people what you do in life, because there are consequences for everything you do positive and negative. I honestly in my heart think that this was part of the plan because you see, I owe and I owe Big-time. You see I repent everyday, I ask for forgiveness everyday, and I do so because I have hurt many people in my past due to my former life of being a gangster and a street-pharmacist. For me, I think I deserve what is happening to me currently. For me this atonement. I had a conversation with the man upstairs and I told him, Look Homie (Higher Power), no disrespect intended, me and him have it good like that, but I told him that I do not mind suffering, being in pain, and paying for my past mistakes. In fact, I told him, "Bring it, I wanna pay back, I know I owe, I can do some time in purgatory. I am a bastard son, but I am your son and if I violated the rules by all means Father (Higher Power) punish me please." I told him, If I have to I will pay the rest of my life, but please, please do not take away my education. All I want to do is devote my life to youth, work with children and teens, all I want is to do his work, I want to save kids from the streets and be a messenger of hope, change, and possibility. Ladies and Gentlemen Thank You for your time, I have to kindly depart for now. I Appreciate everyone of you and if you ask how or what can you do to help me, keep me in your prayers and positive thoughts. Be Good, Do Right, Respect, Think before you do, and above all learn to Love, Help Others, and spread the Peace. Respectfully, Ramon Rolando Cantu
Posted on: Tue, 13 Aug 2013 05:45:48 +0000