This date, will be one that I will always remember. Its the mark of a personal anniversary- a moment in my life where everything changed. Each of us, on our own individual journey, come upon these pivotal transitions, where from that moment on...things are different. Change begins, things start to take on different meanings and levels of importance, perceptions shift...new growth is rooting...its all a part of that continuum...that forever, constant movement that is organically happening all around us. Its a vital part of LIFE-just as the seasons change, we must change- we must constantly adapt, readjust, learn, experience, reflect...for if not, the beautiful evolution of all that is our being, would not exist. Some of these transitions are met with ease, while others are overbearing with challenge, and it is up to us to find and create that balance between them. To meet the challenges with ease and with grace. This date: August 20th, exactly 5 years ago, I was told that I had cancer. Throughout my multiple surgeries, chemotherapy, radiation and all of my treatments... it took me some time to realize and fully come to accept and understand that after all of that, I wouldnt being going back to normal. What is normal anyways? I was motivated to get through all that I had to, to stay positive and overcome each road block and obstacle that came my way so that when I was finished and I beat the disease...I could get back to me; however, in that whole process- I discovered a new me. One that was stronger than I ever believed, one that was more accepting and appreciative of all the incredible things I COULD do, instead of knocking myself down in what I could do better. One that was so brave, that even when I was stripped of the exterior characteristics of beauty- held my head high and flashed my smile bright. A new me that was now instilled with a fresh knowledge, learnt from undergoing such an exhausting and rigorous personal journey. A journey that was highly physically, emotionally, and mentally demanding. There is no going back to normal and that is OK. I am who I am now because of ALL the things that I have experienced and gone through in my life. I am a survivor and this date will always be that marker for me.
Posted on: Wed, 20 Aug 2014 21:39:00 +0000