This hurting mum needs a word of advice.... Ive been legally - TopicsExpress

This hurting mum needs a word of advice.... Ive been legally married for more than a year now without a child. I went for tests after pressure from my in-laws which turned out well but my husband has refused to go for any. Anytime I talk about it, he gets angry. He tells me that my faith is little and that I disturb myself unnecessarily. My mum advised him but hes kept malice with her since then. Now, Im determined to wait till my appointed time comes. Another thing is that each time we have a misunderstanding, he misinterprets my actions or inactions, and when I try to open up on my feelings, pointing out something he did to him, hell react in such a way that hurts me to the extent of saying I have elements of pride in me. Im always at fault no matter how respectfully and peacefully I try to settle things. I sometimes end up begging and crying. Ive learnt not to open up to him again because Im very emotional. I know Im not perfect and we all make mistakes but his utterances are always hurtful. He doesnt give a damn about my feelings. Hell crack expensive jokes with sensitive issues. I try to laugh it off but its fake. We courted for up to two years before marriage. I imagined a union where we can both relate transparently and get over issues easily but its not happening. Even an apology does not pacify him. If I dont beg severally and cry, we wont resolve issues. This is getting on my nerves!!!!