This is kinda long, but been keeping it bottled up for a while and a friend really brought it out of me this weekend... Ive come to the crossroads of my decision making. Its the path that I CHOOSE from now on.. Some people pick you up, and then there are others that knock you down. Im tired of living by this rule. I finally have found the answer, and it lies in me. Do what I think is best ,when I think its best and how it could possibly work out best for ME. Not everyone else.Not family not friends not religion or history..just ME. I no longer consider someone elses feelings or struggles or life before MY OWN. I will pray for you and wish you the best (im not evil)...You may call it selfish, I dont dont care. End of story. I learned the lesson from a great friend , a brother more like to me now for the last 10+ years.. He said..Nothing else matters (aside from your children) what people want from you or them selfs..everybody has an opinion or path to follow.. THE HELL WITH THEM AND THEIR OPINION and paths...Do You..Do You.. Doo YOOOUUUUU. We are all individuals living on this earth trying to survive and make a name for our selfs. But we never really sit back and say, Wow, my kids are healthy or Dang Im a VP now at my job, I must have really put in work or ever just realize how much we really have and take for granted in this stressful screwed up challenge called life We never stop and pat our selfs on the back and say, Im proud of myself, ive accomplished my goal stop and smell the roses, sit back and relax and be thankful for what YOU have accomplished for yourself and if your happy. Once again the HELL with Her and him or it or whoever may judge you for not doing it their way or another. Just do you..key word YOU! Dont ever change who you are by GODS creation for someone else because WE ARE ALL DIFFERENT PEOPLE, not even identical twins are exactly the same. That was the speach I got and it really sunk into my head. I will never change who I am for someone else. Not my family, my friends, girlfriend , wife.. lover what ever...The only reason I did change and honestly it was for the better is when my first child was born. I changed for him, I went from being selfish to responsible and a real Man and most of a real FATHER.who never left and always been there even if its not 100% the right way.. I never bailed and stood up to be a man and father to my kids! I live and breathe for my kids. Nobody can ever take that from me. Not even myself!! So if you have an opinion or anything nagative to say..keep it to yourself, because I know who I am and I know what matters to ME! Pe@ce
Posted on: Mon, 21 Oct 2013 05:31:58 +0000