This is so hard.... But if you have ever been so sick n in pain and scared.. That you cant finish a book.. U have no desire to read.. Thats where Im at.. Ever since my stomach problems got worse... N its hard cause I made obligations to authors.. And I cant muster the energy to do what I promised.. I feel like I have failed.. I get a scope test done next week .. Im hoping to get answers.. Plz know I love reading and photography.. So Im not doing good If I cant enjoy my passions.. All I can do is sleep.. Its the only relief I get from the pain. Ive dealt w pain everyday since I turned 24... I wont go into detail but I have a debilitating disease.. So Im no stranger to pain. But there have been a few times where its bad that sleep is the only relief. Like before my total hip replacement.. That n when my elbow was left in a bent position n I couldnt straighten or move it.. It was inflamed n only a steroid shot finally relieved it n made my arm useable.. So this is just as bad or almost worse.. As the amount of pain my stomach is in. I am sorry to the authors that I have had to put on hold.. Like I have maybe a chapter or 2 of surrender to me by Ella James.. But I havent been able to pick it up.. So I am truly sorry.. I promise though that once I can get just a bit of relief.. I will be a reading machine n get the spotlights done like I promised... I feel like the little blog that failed.. But I will not let this ruin what I started.. This is just a bump.. Or a mountain.. I will get over it.. N this new journey that I started.. Will get its engine going.. And find its place!! Ty for everyone for being understanding.. I feel like the blog is a lonely island.. :(
Posted on: Sun, 10 Nov 2013 13:40:12 +0000