This is the best way to describe the struggles I suffer with my adhd. My brain is being a dumbass. What else is new? I can see why people commit suicide when they have mental troubles. To suffer the inconsistencies. To never find a solid ground to stand on. Always like youre falling, trying to brace yourself. And when you find stability, its so foreign that falling again is part of a natural progression, to perceive a semblance of normalcy. How infuriating is it to be in my mind? My mind is drunk! That solid footing is great, but then a dizziness sets in, and a new solid foothold is needed. OR - When standing, the world stops spinning and is balanced. This is when you feel a desire to move on and find better pastures. Only that your first step fails and now youre back to falling and stumbling. It would be ideal to have someone there to hold you up and help you on your journey. But as this is an ever pervasive issue, not alleviated by rest or time (and neither water nor abstinence will prevent the experience), that person must be there with you nearly constantly. Vigilant to the core. Its no wonder why such persons are in short supply. It grows tiresome to hold just yourself aloft, let alone a whole other person. I just wish I could stop being
Posted on: Sat, 16 Nov 2013 05:22:42 +0000
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