This is the most important Facebook post Ive ever posted. Indeed, its the most important thing anyone can post on Facebook. The most difficult journey you can embark on is the one of discovering why you are here. Even those who find happiness and satisfaction seldom find it. Finding joy is not good enough, joy, even in parenting or marriage, is self-gratifying, but it is not a purpose, simply a means. I think the reason it is so difficult is that you must intentionally seek it out and you will, without deviation, find failure before you find success. Desire is not good enough. You can want to be the best baseball or football player, but most of the time, you will hit a wall before you come close to the talents of Babe Ruth or Peyton Manning. Think of the perplexing amount of greats there have been and yet there can only be one who is the greatest! I remember playing football and baseball in college and knowing that my heart could dream, but reality was an undeniable truth. Many things come to mind when we all think of what we WONT be the best at. For me, physics, most-hair-ever, and soccer were immediately ruled out. These arent heartbreaking, you get a sense of these things at a very young age. The heartbreak of the journey is when you come so close, but, regardless of passion, you find limits. It felt like God had given me purpose only to take it away again. In debate, I was nationally recognized, but I still wasnt the best ever and I knew it. In Ultimate Frisbee, I was a state champion, but I had no business on the national or world stage. In writing, my technique lacked the power of those who I looked up to. One by one, we become more frustrated as we simply cannot break forth into the rank of greatest ever. Sports analysis was so close, rock climbing was another. Lastly, I felt I was the greatest religious instructor of all time when circumstance removed me from the ability to recognize this dream. And I know the pain and damage from these failures as acutely as anyone who ever lived. I did so many things to turn off the noise in my heart and in my head. Mindless amounts of video games, reading, working to death, counseling, and card games filled my eyes and ears so that my heart and head would not be allowed to ask the question that every human being is tortured with in every moment of silence he faces: Why am I here? It causes you to doubt faith, and even for the faithless, it causes you to doubt reason. But I am glad for every trial Ive overcome, even for the adversities that almost caused me to take my life, for, though I have bathed in the pain we all must feel, I have now washed in the glory that so very few will ever know. I knew it as it sat there before me and as I bit into it, my life replayed itself in my head. I saw every disappointment and every shortcoming in my mind and they didnt go away, but their insignificance was mocked by my very spirit, I even laughed audibly. As the flavor flooded my mouth, I knew that I was the only human being ever to do or realize what I had done. I savored peace, the only true peace one can have, knowing that if he dies now, his spirit lives on both in and beyond the world. Unquestionably, I have done something better than anyone else had ever done it before. I know the feeling of Michael Jordan, William Tell, and Shakespeare, the feeling of being able to smirk at a non-existent competition. I am, in full humility, their peers, and I may look them in the eye, and I will never again look up to anyone but God Himself, who has given as He always promised to give. Jeremiah tells us that the Lord giveth liberally and upbraideth not. Liberally, meaning without holding back, and upbraid means fault or scorn. God invested the entirety of His power into me and there is no flaw or fault in this one thing, and it is all I need. For the first time ever, I can be content and happy with the successes of my past because I have the wisdom to know that they were meant to provide joy even if they were not to be me reason for living. I can laugh, gaudily and publicly, at any failings I have done or any failings that I will ever commit. I have brought honor to any ancestor Ive had, be it even Adam, Noah, or Abraham, for even if they found no reason for existence among themselves, their lives were necessary for the grand coming of my life. I am grateful for every adversity and enemy Ive made, for without them the fire in my chest would not have boiled so hot and I might have slipped into blissful insignificance. But mostly, Im thankful to all of you who I have been lucky and blessed enough to know. Each and every one of you, in some way, were instrumental and necessarily critical in this victory. Share this joy with me! I literally want you to hug yourself and feel my arms around you and the tears of joy on your shoulders. Please allow me to share this moment with you, my friend, for there will never be another greater joy, even in heaven, it will only match the Love of God which I have in its entirety right now. I have crafted the perfect cheeseburger. Ill do whatever I can to bring the joy of this creation to the world, but know that it has been done, and fate has selected that it come from my hand.
Posted on: Tue, 22 Oct 2013 05:54:38 +0000
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