This is the rationale behind moving on and accepting my moms passing - she had done her work - there was nothing else for her to do. I remember standing by her bed asking God wasnt there anything else she could do. She had prayed for us all for many years. As somebody was talking to me the other day when I was feeling the pressure of being the family matriarch and bemoaning my lack of wisdom to handle the many problems of my family - she said Moses is dead Joshua. It bought tears to my eyes immediately and made me realize mama did what she was called to do and now she takes her rest - its my turn and I must do as my great-grandmother, grandmother and mother have done - call on the Name of the Lord and never let go of my faith in Him and lead my family - do what I must and then be prepared to take my rest. This is my struggle because the one thing Ive tried to run from all of my life is being responsible for others - as the oldest child - I was always reminded to take care of your sister - dont let nothing happen to my baby - and here I am 60 years old realizing all my life God has never changed His plans for me - He was preparing me - testing me along the way - every time I wanted to give up Id get mad at myself for not giving up - but Gods purposes always prevail and nothing has changed - God is my keeper!
Posted on: Tue, 11 Nov 2014 18:08:00 +0000
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