This is to everyone that thinks they know me. Most of you only see my strength, well its about time I share with all of you. Here are all the things that have bothered me that I never felt I could talk about with who really mattered, so instead for once Im going to give many of you a glimpse as to what has shaped , chipped, and cracked me into the man I am today. And if anyone actually cares, youll read to the bottom Ive been rejected by family, gone out of my way for people to be taken advantage of, helped take people off the street without any real appreciation, in fact all I got was treated with a lack of respect for making other peoples lives better. What did I do for myself? Well its kind of pathetic, Ive come to accept that I know my aunt can ever love me or accept me for who i love although if she saw how much good Ive done shed be ashamed with how she made me feel like I was NOT part of her family by walking out of my sisters wedding reception because my boyfriend and I at the time were dancing (I was 17, its been 10 years, last I heard I wasnt welcome unless I was willing to lie and say im straight, or just pretend I dont have a romantic life.), what else did I do for myself? I lived a very malnourished life when I took people off the street, in fact there were normally more days in a month where I wouldnt eat to be able to make sure everyone else was full. Thats not it. I dont know how to party and relax, and I hate it, I dont know how to have a good time because all I do is make sure my friends are ok and when they arent I either take care of them or figure out a plan of action to help If Im not the person wanted. That was short wasnt it, well, your about to start the final haul of my story, dont worry its not as long as that first one though Before I graduated high school I thought it was normal to of been the reason a couple people didnt take their life, and all I did was listen to people that didnt feel they had anyone to listen too or trust, when I moved to North bay I felt that pain and since then have done even more to make sure people know I care, because no one should ever feel like no one cares for them, thats not right and our society unfortunately lacks the ability to think for anyone other than themselves unless its through technology; I am guilty of this but in my defense I go out of my way to make my friends know I love and care for them when I do get to see them in person. Dont get me wrong there is still plenty more, but thats all Im comfortable sharing. Take a lesson people, us nice guys disappear because we arent shown appreciation for what we do. Here is what I ask to anyone thats made it this far, think of someone in your life that you have not shown appreciation for, and please thank them in this post so they know why you are thanking them. I dont want anyone to put my name below, it would look and feel forced, what will make me happy will be to hopefully see people given the appreciation they rightfully deserve and never got, because trust me its a horrible feeling when your expected to be there for someone because its who you are and they thank you by making you feel used and taken advantage of. I would like to start this off by thanking my parents Allan and Brenda if it wasnt for the morals you guys taught me, I wouldnt be concerned for others like I am. I wouldnt of made the impact in the lives I have, and honestly I cant of asked for better parents If anyone has any sense of selfe decensy, youll take a few minutes and think of someone that has positively changed or impacted your life, and thank them, sometimes the smallest gesture makes the biggest impact, but never taking that opportunity to appreciate someone? Why does everyone wonder why the good guys stop being good guys Chris (I really hope I dont get dissapointed, I dont want people to feel unappreciated as I have in the past)
Posted on: Fri, 02 Jan 2015 13:16:09 +0000
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