This morning the final chapter was written in my love story with my equine friend, Jake. After having him for 23 years and being 32 years old, he was tired and he told me it was time to go. I knew the medicine wouldnt save him or allow me to keep him forever. I was being selfish and wasnt ready to let him go. The last week and a half has been the best and saddest days of my life. Each day I prayed he would go quietly when he was ready, but that I would be there. I wanted it to be his choice, not mine. I might have lied a little to him when I told him I was ready if he was. As I laid on the ground with his head in my lap telling him it would be ok, I was crumbling inside. We made the call and I kept wishing the vet would hurry because I didnt want him to lay there and suffer (although he wasnt in pain). The minute the vet pulled in I sobbed and wanted him to go away. Jake kept looking into my eyes and blinking so slow. When the shot was given he passed peacefully in my lap. It is a moment so strong that I will never be able to forget it. When I bought Jake he wasnt for sale. I talked the lady into selling him to me but I could only give her half of what she wanted BUT I promised her that I would love him forever and that he would never leave me. I kept that promise. I am so very grateful that I had him in my life and that I was there until the very last breath. I planted 300 bulbs on his grave tonight. 20 wouldnt have been flashy enough for him so I decided 300 ought to work since I did have him 276 months. Each spring his beauty will live on. This is my last selfie with Jake. Rest in Peace my sweet sweet Jakers. My heart is broken.
Posted on: Thu, 28 Aug 2014 03:41:46 +0000
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