This post is for the ones in my life that have helped me through and probably kept me alive this past year. I was blessed to be cured of hep c but it carries a heavy price. I have moments of clarity and moments of doubt, fear or just not remembering what I do. If anyone else said it six months ago I would have told them their full of shit. Ive been going through my own personal hell lately and Im to the point where I dont trust my own feelings anymore. This is a moment of clarity and though Im a believer of telling people how you feel personally face to face, I do this so she knows that I want the world to know. She has been the one constant in my life for the exception of my kids. She has been my anchor at times, my lover, my best friend and the bearer of my insecurities, my self hate and my dis belief that there is anyone left that can really love me like that. I know Ive hurt and scarred her but she has kept hanging on. Ive always asked God for an angel to help me make it through and he saved the best for last. I cant control the way I feel at times so I ask that she would forgive me for the piece of shit I can be. Dotty I know you gave up a lot of security in your life to be with the mess that is me. Thank you for all you have done and sacrificed for me. I attached this song because sometimes you find a song that fits word for word and this is it. I leave in 9 days for cal. I dont know what the future holds but I do know and I promise by God and all that I hold dear that I will be a better man and I will be back to salt lake with a band and Ill let the people decide . Time reveals everything in the end. For my family and friends thank you for your love. I hope this year brings love and peace for us all.
Posted on: Wed, 31 Dec 2014 20:58:02 +0000
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