This song has been my one connection with Big Eddie, one of my most memorable and cherished moments was sitting around the fire next to him, he dug into the cooler an made sure everyone had a nice cold beer, as I went to open mine he stopped me an placed it aside for later he stated. Eddie than reached out from beside him and pulled out a bottle of wine, ( from Shirley Scotts gifts lol) ... This is for me and you, they say wine is special eh, so we drank it at special times with special people, at special moments eh, that good beer under your chair is to chase that gross shit taste that comes wit it eh :) after popping it open he placed his hand over mine an ask if I was okay...WOW!! He knew at that moment he was losing the long battle he fought, but his concern was to make sure his loved ones were happy in their life! I of course lied stating yes everything was good, thinking I would be selfish to speak otherwise, he knew... He held my hand an passed the wine, Family, love, no regrets...as he squeezed my hand, youll be alright ehh :) I held those words all that night, once going to bed he just kept offering anything an everything he had to offer from food to beddings, entrainment to relaxation. I just took a big goodnight hug!! That I also can still feel. As I pretended to sleep, I could hear him being sick throughout the night, I knew if I got up to attend to him he would just start concern for me. So I lied their praying, that if I could assist him in anyway to send me a sign, few mins after prayer ther was silience....I waited and lied awake listening, hoping he was feeling better to rest. Didnt take long for sun to rise, I crept ever so quietly, tip toeing to assure he was asleep and not to awake him. I made my way to the patio doors wher the sun was beaming an the birds were singing joyfully. I remember thanking the higher spirits for allowing him to rest, not even two seconds went by when I heard his voice behind me asking coffee? I turned to see him standing ther holding twomugs. I apologized if I awoke him..I felt bad. He said quote Im gonna rest right now Im gonna watch the sunrise on the porch swing, eh? So grateful for that morning! It was filled with warmth that can never be explained in words, listening to him being so grateful about the life he got to live, from his bad boy rep, to his love for family!! His contentment on being able to provide an pay off his home to make sure his love in life would be stable was his last goal. On my way home feeling overwhelmed by his love, words, stories, an exceptence of his final days, this song came on the radio. Was the first time I heard. Very time I hear it now, I am placed back to one of the most important moments of my entire life. I however get a little regret in not being honest about my struggles when he asked, because more than anything I would an do want his advice. Instead of drowning in regret I play this song when needed to speak with him about ALL my daily issues, lol amazing how I can feel him listening an once all tears fall I can most times feel the warmth of his hand on mine saying youll be okay eh!! Rip Big Eddie! But forever stay close!!
Posted on: Fri, 16 Jan 2015 10:19:57 +0000
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