Thought for today Man I slept HARD, and I have to accept who I am. Yesterday, except for a couple of phone calls I spent it in the presence of the Lord. Filled up and spirit lead. I have been looking into our past to see our future. I cant stop thinking about where we started in our relationship with God, to where we are now. I cannot stop thinking about it. Last night in the teaching I have been sitting with, the pastor went through the gifts of the spirit, but whole and entire. Not just touching on them, but explaining them, and as he covered each one in great detail, he provided something I did not see. I had thought I was one label. The Pastor/Teacher from the old way of looking at things. But then as the summer progressed my elevation occurred and I at first ran from a title. It was out of fear. The next title I thought meant one thing, but this man taught me what it really is. This pastor laid out the calling of the title. I want to share with you. If thats not what you wish to read, well you may click away. I wont be offended I promise. I will add the description here first: This person was a person who Foretold and Fourth told This means that this person to foretell is to predict events in the future that the person could not know about or understand. And the information would be given by God. The person would not have to do this only a few times in ones life. But when the events came they were from The Lord. To fourth tell was to see all the events in current life, and to connect the dots by knowing the will and word of God. This person would not be a favorite in a party as, well often this person would be able to show where people would be headed. This person would not be a person who liked hurting others, but would tell the truth no matter what. This person wouldnt care at all what people thought of them. This person would change a persons life by directly speaking life into that person in an exacting manner, by telling that person about themselves, how God sees them, and what the Lord wants to pass on as information to them, this person would also do this right when the person NEEDED to receive the information, not early, not late, but at the right exacting moment. This person can be a man or woman, this person longed to follow old ways and old customs, Desired to walk closer to the Lord than many. Needed to follow the right way. This person would have the ability to feel the other person. Now this person might not always be right 100%, but for the most part was. As this person could be developing the gift, and speak without truly understanding the message, as we all have to learn, and when we do we learn at different speeds. This person would be gifted in many ways, and quite often liked to teach people about the Lord. This person could with confidence answer most if not all questions directly and those not answered would come out in prayer. Intercessory prayer would be big part of this person. The were considered the doctor of the body, they were the life of the house and considered a spokesman. Today most denominations seem to have stepped from the roles of the gifts in the spirit. The gifts of the spirit are important as I saw here by this description. I was looking to it as an investigator in me, to try to rule out the elevation of my calling once again and again came up with a description based in the 1st century church days that again fit what I do. Here in me is a person who has spoken to people time and again right exactly when it was needed. And it was what they needed spiritually at that moment. At times I can tell people about themselves that I should not and had no knowledge to know. All to help them. I have seen events and told those around me of those events, either in dream, or I just knew them. I can explain things spiritually as it applies to us and God. I strive to connect the dots to explain and show what is wrong, and how to fix it. Spiritually and non spiritually. And no I care not to seek out others approval, but yeah I am like everybody else I like to fit in, but to a point. My faith is first, and I strive to live in the older ways and show others all that I can. I will shut up now on this so I can get back to TFTD proper. Here is what I am saying, after I took in the new lesson from last night, I slept better than I ever have before. A spirit of peace came over me with who I truly am. Pressures that I placed upon me have been casted aside. Suddenly I am OK. I am OK with where I am in regards to my walk. OK with being the person who seeks out the old ways. OK with being able to know things and pass it to people to help their walks. OK with trying to make it all work the way the spirit intends. OK with being able to help others understand themselves and the Lord every chance I get. OK with all that I do and am, the gifts (plural not singular) the Lord has blessed me with. Confession: Receiving this gift has in no way been easy. I went from just watching sermons and praying at the end, to five months later being called by The Lord into being a Pastor. I thought I would never change. HA! The Lord led me in assuming that role, but brought me through everything I needed to say and do since. EVERY direction has come from Him not another man. He then lead me on an impossible last year. I mean, all of this has been impossible. If I passed right now I know I would be able to look back on this life and feel that I was full, filled the role I was given with the best I could give. This is a great feeling. (and heck I have many yeas left in me to do Gods work) Each and every step has been terrifyingly GREAT. I have been in a not easy place with it all. It is hard to be called into ministry, harder into deliverance ministry, and even harder to know you were called into another role still. The role I am in. I am not going to lie to you, that would not be me if I did. The thought that God chose me.... Me..... I mean.......... I am blown away. I am sorry that I did not admit to the message this summer sure, but as a good friend said to me, that was yesterday, you have no control over yesterday right? All you can do is move your bubble forward. There have been moments where I stood in complete terror, delivering a message or what ever or even in a service, or deliverance or anything, where I had no clue what to say or do...... But the Lord said to me, You know me? You trust me? well just follow. Some of the following has been hard, I have had to explore myself, I have had to lean of Jesus more than anything in the world. I have had to trust more. I have had to grow more. I have had to know that God knows better and even when He asks us to do something that hurts it is for His glory, your, and at times even others walks. I tell you these things as...... I know how hard my walk has been for me, thus it must be for you equally as hard, probably different for you than mine but just as hard. I have had to experience things that sucked to be able to lead others, and that is something I gratefully accept. Last night I had the best sleep ever. EVER. I have no choice to be who I am, I have the strongest DESIRE to follow Him right into all He has for me to do, and experience. On dedication, I dedicated and given my Life to Serve Christ. It is NOT at all easy in today to follow as close as I have been (PS. not comparing me to you, just me to me. I am no greater than you,we are one) and where He has lead....... I never thought I would have made it. It has NOT been easy, and I know I have messed up in places and will again. But you know what.......... MY SISTER AND MY FRIENDS WERE RIGHT..... I WOULD HAVE DONE IT AGAIN KNOWING ALL THAT I WOULD FACE..... They know me better than I know myself again. Thanks to you all, I could not have come into my true self with out each one of you in my life, every living person and passed person. Every long lasting relationship and every momentary encounter. And each person that has come to me over the years and allowed me to lead them. Everybody under the sun, thank you for helping me get to this calling. For those who are close to me will appreciate the ending more than I. May the light of Gods love Illumine your heart. PTM Just saying.... Ps. Walking in a gift is far easier then accepting the title of the gift, that is if you are truly called. As you have to TEST it, to prove or disprove it. I have tested the title for 1 year to the fullest I could, including others around me. Logically after passing every test to satisfactory level and then some.... I can no longer deny...... Michael IS Proven, and Mike is behind. My close friends get the statement there, to the rest of you..... Just find your true spiritual self and then you will understand.
Posted on: Wed, 20 Nov 2013 20:09:25 +0000
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