Tiresd of living at a standstill.. never being able to move - TopicsExpress

Tiresd of living at a standstill.. never being able to move forward or grow... Every dime of extra money goes to beer and cigarettes to assure the persobn im with is at a constant level of loaded never getting to go anywhere or pln for the future because i have to juggle bills that we have money to pay but put off for beer and cigarettes.. i dont smoke and have cut out what littl drinking i did but i will never get to move into a home i bought or even get mmarried to the person who says they love me but not enough to marry me or spend one single day with me completely sober... Am i so bad to be with???