Today has been cleansing. I have got much needed sleep, some talk time with my amazing wife and some ME time! Things that were all essential with the mind set I am in! My phone has practically blown up with some are you okays and some actual what you would think are true concerns. Today after SO long I didnt text back. I kept on the mindset of myself. What I needed. What my wife and son deserve and who has shown they deserve in our life. I finally didnt think well maybe it really is legit concern. I used my brain. Not my heart! You can only be there for people for so long with nothing in return that you have absolutely no choice but to walk away. You have to let go, pray for that person or people and move on while letting people who deserve it to be closer to you and remind them how thankful you are to have people with those values in your life. I am NOT saying anyone is a bad person. I am saying that my self worth is more than what I have accepted these last few months! People who bring me down have been blocked from my phone, not because I hate you but because I need to move on without being cussed or given a guilt trip. & the same will happen with my Facebook when I can. So if you feel like you are in this category or I have pulled away, this is for you! I have a couple of friends whom ADORE me. Whom adore what I do for them and their families. Whom realize I will put other things on hold to be there for them and just spend genuine time together. No matter how often, Whom know that when I show concern its out of love and instead of dragging my name down they lift it up with thanks! Again, its NOT my place to judge nor am I saying anyone is bad. I am not God I just like this feeling of I am wanted and needed as a true friend. Thank you to my amazing friends who have been here to talk to me today and my wife who although I know this is hard for her and life changing too is ready to move on as well. She is thankful to be included in things, to be told how good of a job she does to support her family and to have friends who on her few days off every now and then want to spend time having fun, nothing but smiles and that anything we say stays between us because thats what best friends do! && my mom and dad. For biting their tongue for so long. For watching me cry but respecting my decision that people need second chances and for being there for people simply because I asked them to because I believed in them, You both are amazing people eho have hearts like mine and there are so many that cherish that
Posted on: Tue, 30 Sep 2014 01:54:26 +0000
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