Today has been so surreal and for most of it Ive been lost on how to feel. In the past 140 days so many different events, obstacles, successes, and social interactions have occurred. Tomorrow is the end of a journey that isnt measured in miles or days. Ive held on to so much pain since Strong died ranging anywhere from blaming myself to wishing it had been me instead. That part of life is over. For the past two weeks its been as if a veil was lifted from my head. I have a life I am looking forward to living, I have a woman in my life I would do anything for, and to put it bluntly Ive finally allowed myself to feel truly happy. I have the wherewithal to accept that a friend would be more concerned with the continued happiness and success of his buddies than the adulation any memorial to them could represent. I do not think anyone, ever, should dwell on the pain remembered in the unchangeable past. This does not mean to forget what has brought us to the present but to respect ourselves enough to know that tomorrow is coming and we have the benefit of acting upon the world in a way that is admirable and kind. Johnnys legacy will not live on as a charity ride or beautiful granite stone. His legacy is us, his friends and family, and no matter how he may have affected our lives our actions carry a bit of him, and everyone else that has gone before us, with them.
Posted on: Thu, 28 Aug 2014 04:07:04 +0000
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