Today i woke up and the questions MY heavenly dad and creator asked me Terrified me. they were really hard to answer and most of the time i remained silent and speechless. i cannot and will never replace him with any one in my heart but he just told me son, someone or something in your life wants to compete with me in getting ur attention and and space or position in ur life and remember I am a jealous God. sadly at some point I know what he is talking about and i agreed and told him daddy you are my lord(meaning you own me and all u have given me) help me? if there is anything that i fear most in this life is walking on this earth alone without God.I rather die than be alone or be an enemy or cheat on God. even when am wrong he know i will rather he kill me than me run away to hide. he is my dad . my life revolves around him. all i am he made me. i was nothing a nobody that even no fly could land on leave alone people when he picked me up and i want to remain broken and nothing every time i worship and adore him. I am not perfect but i want to forever remain honest to him that at some point my dad wont feel am lying to him. i want to be an open book and a transparent glass before him. daddy have your way in me. u are the one and only father,mother, friend that i have and that has sticked by myside at all times. my fiancée can go, friends have ever all deserted me. my bilogical mother deserted me and left me on earth long time ago. my only real family have ever rejected me and even denounced their association with me. u are the one and only that stuck by my side, held my hand and told me son you are great and i will leave to see you arise to be the pillar to all who have hurt and persecuted you. thats my relationship with this God of mine. am offended not because of what he told me but for me making him feel like he is competing with anyone or anything for my attention. daddy forgive me and have your way. this is your beloved son and he needs you and your affirmation more than the air he is breathing in.please dont dare abandon me becoz i will be as good as dead. i love you dad and i desperately need you. your son Olivah. speak and direct my life. i step down from the drives sit that i had invaded of my life for you.
Posted on: Tue, 26 Nov 2013 07:08:25 +0000
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