Today is November 1st! Although its the official day where the holidays start its also the day 1 year ago today that my test results came back confirming I had cancer. It was devistating news to me. I had a 2 year old and newborn baby whome I had just been through hell with and watched her fight for her life. I had all sorts of emotions, fear, sadness, anger. Why was I being punished? And most importantly why were my children being punished? This could ultimately take myself from my girls and my family and I could die, I could actually DIE at the age of 25 from this! So young and so much to look forward to! Why did I deserve this? I had all those emotions but the strongest one was hope! I did some treatments over the next few months and fought to get a doctor willing to do the surgery I needed to essentially get rid of this nasty disease. I lost hair, at times I felt like I was outside of my body and wasnt there for my children. All while I was a single mother and working full time and doing my best to provide for my kids. It was the hardest thing Ive had to ever do in my entire life! I had the surgery on March 14, 2014 and it was right before Easter. My sister and dad and DJ came down and cooked Easter dinner, I got to see my girls for maybe 2 hours because I was unable to function and care for them. The hardest thing was when their dad came to get them when my family left is watching them get in his vehicle and driving away. I remember standing by my door crying so hard because I felt so damn helpless. I felt worthless. I picked myself up though with the help of all my friends and family. I have to say thank you everyone for everything through this! Ill tag some but there are so many more people who I cant tag. On April 14, 2014 I received the phone call that my levels that had been at 92% were now down to 2%! Best news ever! I cried tears of joy! I felt such a relief of pressure off my shoulders. Cant help but think, my life is wonderful now, I have my 2 beautiful girls who are my everything, a roof over our heads, a career, a loving boyfriend who has pushed me even further and encouraged me and a loving family who has always been there for me even when we disagreed. Friends who have supported me. Im one of the lucky ones, Im a fighter and a survivor and I never give up!
Posted on: Sat, 01 Nov 2014 14:23:28 +0000
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