Tonight I am grateful for my girlfriends. Today I had an emotional hangover from all that therapy yesterday, Sundays visit and the work Ive been doing to get our family back on track. Plus my body revolted to day 3 of my diet/cleanse. Took out gluten, dairy, sugar, meat/chicken last two days and was switching over to the master cleanse today, cutting all food and caffeine. Surprise, surprise- I got really ill. Headache, dizzy, nauseous, mentally & physically Exhausted. A friend stopped by and reminded me that with all that is on my plate- maybe I dont need to be superwoman - able to change my whole life and my eating in a single bound. Perhaps eliminating one food group at a time could be better. She was right- not functioning at all is not an option, so I added back some fruit, nuts, seeds, and Advil. Then I grabbed a mini bottle of Coke and my headache and nausea promptly lifted (lol). Felt good enough to head out to my womans support group. Grateful for the teen baby sitter who lives across the street- and is somewhat affordable. Sooo love these woman that I meet up with every Thursday night. They are my recovery sisters, as are many of you my wonderful FB friends, kind, caring, loving, supportive, and empathetic. Tonights topic was humility. Changing everything- letting go of money, relationships, control, career, this house, my kids, health, sanity, and giving it all to God to take care of; God has brought me to my knees yet again. To be in his will he require us to release our ego, our self will, self centered ness, and our character defects, to trust and have faith. To me that is humility. I cant, he can so I need to get out of my own way and let him. Grateful that God wants more for me than I want for myself! Not necessarily more money, property or prestige, he wants more love, faith, trust, kindness, patience and humility in my heart and soul. Grateful to be with peers that are struggling and striving for the same things. To know I am not alone is priceless. We all have our issues, being willing to pick them up and keep moving forward- that is half the challenge. Grateful that my son just called me. Working to be more present for him and his sister. Working through our challenges to get back to the peace, serenity, love, and joy in my heart and our home. Grateful for this opportunity one day at a time.
Posted on: Thu, 10 Apr 2014 03:02:47 +0000
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