VENT: Its moments like these that I question why do I fight so hard for my medical crap. I have had a herniated disc in my lower back since 2000. I knew that having cortisone shots were only buying me time until such time I would need back surgery (laminectomy +/- discectomy) depending on what the surgeon says. So my spine specialist tells me Thursday that I need surgery soon ( was not prepared to hear him say that). Friday I had a holy mary cortisone shot to buy me time until I need back surgery. The surgeon isnt even taking appointments until mid-January so that means surgery will probably will be February before this gets fixed. It turns out my Pain Management Dr left so I need to see a different one and cant get in to see him until December 2! I can only get appropriate pain management (which sometimes includes pills in addition to Chiro, Acupuncture, PT etc) at that office. NO other physician that I have will write me a script to help me even IN THE SHORT term; no my PCP and not my Dr who does my back shots! I have spent 14 years with pain over this and only just recently experienced rock bottom from it tonight. I had to go the ER (again, ugh) and they got it under better control but didnt write any script (no muscle relaxers or anything!) I started bawling right then. I told him how all my doctors defer to the pain management Dr which is great and had always worked, however, since I cant see this doctor for weeks I cant begin to think of whats going to happen to my life between then and now. I cannot live with 8/10 pain for TEN days. I cant take care of Olivia let alone the house, forget that. My life is falling apart and I am seriously at the end of everything I CANNOT take this anymore. Please note: this is a rant, I dont want advice for everything Ive been through, Ive been trying it for 14 years. Pills, Doctors (including addictionologists!),Acupuncturists, Naturopaths, Massage therapy, supplements, physical therapy, swim therapy, youve named it Ive done it! I am doing this to show how I really feel. I dont need snarky remarks either. What I really need to hear is Im sorry, is there anything I can do to help? Most helping would be just listening. Or even a simple *hugs* gesture would be nice. And if anyone out there has had a laminectomy or discectomy could you please let me know youre experience?
Posted on: Sun, 23 Nov 2014 07:39:47 +0000