Via confession page #Must read guys confession by CA Topper who got 35% marks in 12th , worth reading post #975: I know exactly what it feels like to enter in CA at 22. Here is my story. My father passed away when I was 8. Despite the tragedy, I was actually relieved because my father was extremely strict. I was too young for emotional attachment or to understand the future repercussions. What followed was delinquency and a self-perpetuating cycle of vitriol with my family. This began when my relatives started meddling with my family affairs. The children of my relatives were either from DPS or Mayo (Ajmer) and they expected my mum, now a single parent to bring my sibling and I up to “their” benchmark. I distanced myself from them, developed a habit of stealing, got caught and became the family’s black sheep. I did opposite whatever my mum wished. I cursed when she demanded civility. I lazed when she demanded that I study. School never interested me. Despite that I read a lot outside the curriculum. When the 12th class result came, I got a shitty 35%, enough to qualify me for the Normal Academic stream. I never learned. That was in the early 2000s, the age of LAN gaming. I continued to neglect my studies and fu*ked up big time in college . I retained. That was when I just woke up. Like vengeance, the warnings came back to haunt me. Failure can do weird things to people. Some drown in sorrow and never quite become the same again. Others are reinforced, sometimes to the point of transformation. I was lucky to belong to the latter category. Luck and serendipity played a huge role. I never believed in god. I worked hard, really hard that it became an obsession. I topped in P2 (CA Inter)and then got rank in CA Final. I got more than I bargained for. I was in a situation of extreme irony. My age and my past did not match my “newly given” identity. I felt out of place, which was not helped either since I had no one I knew in CA, I was a stranger in a strange situation. I can empathize with what you are feeling, that of being “misplaced” and about coping. I hope I can share with you some of my thoughts about this predicament and I hope they can serve you well. With regards to feeling out of place, I think the most important point here is to never let your past or your age come back to haunt you. There will be times where self-doubts will creep in. They will occur when you fail to grasp certain concepts in class compared to your more “capable” friends. This feeling of inadequacy might come but never let it affect you. Psychologists call this the “stereotype threat”. It harms your performance because you feel like you belong to “the other” group. Instead, understand that we come from different preparatory backgrounds. Work hard towards developing your understanding of your course materials and stay focused. You will succeed. There will be times where you will feel work to be overwhelming. Poly was a breeze. The point here is to stay extremely focused. Depending on your objectives, do the necessary. CA has a lot of distractions. Your friend will sooner or later ask you out for clubbing, a variety of other activities. These activities are important. But the important thing here is to prioritize. Learn to say no. The friendship you make will broaden your thinking and will bring you benefits you never knew. That being said, remember to stay true to yourself (provided that you are not a major asshole). Never live a lie just to make friends. Lastly, to succeed, be strategic. Oftentimes you will see some really smart dude getting straight As effortlessly. Never emulate what doesn’t work on you. Sometimes when people tell you “this mod no need study one”, don’t buy their bullshit. Do what you must to ensure that you understand the materials taught. Never let doubts linger. That should be your benchmark. Group mates are important, try to find smart people to group with but never ever rip them off, learn from them. Also, plan your exams wisely. I can say that life turned out to be really lucky and unexpected for me. But that does not mean that hard work and smarts are not necessary. Luck favors the prepared. My journey in CA has been meaningful thus far and I hope it would be the same for you. Here’s from an old boy to another. Stay hungry, stay foolish.
Posted on: Thu, 18 Jul 2013 18:11:07 +0000
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