WHERE WAS I WHEN I NEEDED ME? IT WASNT MY FAULT EVEN WHEN I HAD BEEN WARNED I GAVE UP MY MIND & SOUL THEN A NEW CREATURE WAS BORN LOST IN CONFUSION & MADNESS I CAME TO BE MY LIFE SHOWED ALL THE SIGNS OF UNMANAGEABILITY I HAD BECOME OVERPOWERED BY COMPULSION & OBSESSION UNWILLING & UNABLE TO ACCEPT LIFES REAL LESSONS LOSS OF CONTROL, DENIAL & ISOLATION I TRIED TO COVER UP WITH DESPERATE MANIPULATION SEEKING REFUGE FROM THE TRUTH I DIDNT WANT TO SEE WHERE WAS I WHEN I NEEDED ME? NOT BELIEVING THAT I WAS MISTAKEN I STARTED USING ALL KINDS OF RATIONALIZATIONS ANGER, DISTRUST, GUILT & EMBRRASSMENT SELF-PITY, DEPRESSION & FEAR IS WHERE MY SPIRIT WENT DESPERATELY I TRIED TO FIND A WAY OUT BUT FEELINGS OF HELPLESSNESS & HOPELESSNESS BROUGHT ABOUT DOUBT ILL DO IT ANOTHER WAY, I THOUGHT I HAD A SOLUTION ONLY TO FIND OUT THAT IT WAS ONLY SUBSITUTION SO, AGAIN THE QUESTION MUST BE... WHERE WAS I WHEN I NEEDED ME? PAIN, DERELICTION & DEGRADATION FINALLY FORCED ME TO HAVE A REVEALATION THAT EVEN THOUGH ALL AROUND ME WAS STRIFE THAT I NEEDED TO HAVE FAITH & ACCEPTANCE GIVING GOD MY WILL & MY LIFE I WAS TOLD TO HUMBLY REMEMBER THAT IN ORDER TO TRULY GROW I HAD TO BEIEVE, ADMIT & SURRENDER HONESTY, OPEN-MINDEDNESS, WILLINGNESS & TRUST PRATICING THESE PRINCIPALS I ALWAYS MUST I KNOW NOW IF I PRATICE TOLERANCE, PATIENCE & HUMILITY GOD & I WILL BE THERE WHEN I NEED ME ART J.
Posted on: Mon, 24 Mar 2014 12:30:47 +0000