We are moving across the country next week and my mother said she wants to say goodbye now. I felt sad writing this but I knew it was necessary for my healing. I basically wrote: I have truly thought long and hard and cannot deal with the hypocrisy. You made it clear u do not want a relationship with me, and for me that includes my family. You r going to other wordly relatives weddings but could not attend mine months ago. U blew up at me for expressing y I feel that is not the true religion, u kept your kids from me until they were 18. Thing is they both do and did worse than I EVER have in my LIFE. U support them emotionally tho. They both have said they want NOTHING to do with JW organization, which according to the elders book, is verbally Disassociating themselves. Also according to elders, people who r disassociated r to b treated the same way disfellowshipped people r. However I am glad u do not do that to them because no one deserves to be treated that way. As I recall, when u were Disfellowshipped I went out of my way to make sure u were not left out, we even traveled with u guys. I know u guys prob never plan to visit or call. We said our goodbye on 4th of July weekend. I need to leave without further opening of wounds u have done things in the name of God so emotionally abusive I need to pull away. I have had to mourn in my own way to finally emotionally accept u never wanted a relationship with me. U had certain issues that I must have triggered when I was about 9 years of age. U have acted like u never wanted me and have a certain hatred towards me. U have always loved to see me suffer, and hated the fact that I thrive. It makes me wonder y I was never sent to live with grandmother, at least I wouldnt have to deal with this now. She has, and always will support me. I have to thank u tho, because of u, I am going to get my masters this fall in mental health to counsel others who have gone through what I have. The door is always open if ever u decide u do want to have a relationship. But this is my closure.
Posted on: Wed, 30 Jul 2014 10:51:45 +0000
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