Well. Around this time 3 short months ago we were saying goodbye to our precious little man. Its crazy to say that long has passed because it doesnt feel like it. Looking back, I can honestly say I do not know how I made it this far. I never imagined it would be possible. I guess just like everyone else, I woke up each day & put one foot in front of the other. We learned about the sting of death in church and I can say that time has helped that sting. Im not sure why though. I still wake up every morning & my first thought is is this really my life? Or did that really happen to us? Then reality sets in & I realize it all wasnt a bad dream. This thing we all call life goes on, no matter what. Maybe Ive just accepted that. I do know that I can make it thru the days without crying EVERY single day. Im not sure thats a milestone because it makes me feel guilty, not better. I can smile when I think about him & remember him as our happy little boy. But that doesnt make missing him any easier. I say this every time but Ive never felt so many confusing emotions in my life & I dont see that ever changing. This is just our life now. Im off on my field trip today but I know that my mind will be with him every step of my day. I love you so much Laken & I know that you know that. We miss you buddy. Nothing is the same without you here with us. 💔
Posted on: Thu, 24 Apr 2014 08:58:47 +0000