Well friends sometimes in life we have to do things that are best for us that hurt our hearts, I learned this lesson early in my sobriety once already, some of you may recall what Im talking about when I painfully left a relationship I was in that made me question if sobriety was right for me quite often. This is a little different but its still a goodbye nonetheless. I need to say goodbye to my Dad. Its time for me to get back to my life, my job, my routine even tho my heart wants nothing more to sit with him and fix his breakfast every morning, guard over him while he sleeps and greet him with a smile when he wakes so he knows he is loved and not alone. Life still happens outside this room no matter how hard I wish it not too. Its unsettling not knowing if this is my forever goodbye to him and my next trip down will be to grieve with my family for him or I will have another day to look into the honest eyes of his soul. I will pray for more time with him and the opportunity to come back again....... All Im sure of is I am grateful to have had these past 4 weeks with him, I am grateful to have reconnected with my family who I know without a doubt will look out for papa smurf fearlessly as they have for me in my short stay...... I read a story on a friends page the other day about a woman who was saying was saying goodbye to her mother in a similar way, they left each other by saying I wish you enough when they explain what that meant it brought a tear to my eye thinking I will have to do the same with my Dad So Daddy I wish you enough............ I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright no matter how grey the day I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive I wish you enough pain so that even the smallest of joys in life may appear bigger. I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting. I wish you enough loss to appreciate all you possess I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye. I know he wishes this for me with out hearing his words Love you .....your partner.......thats what he called me today
Posted on: Mon, 19 May 2014 01:47:03 +0000
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