Well thinking of what to talk about, what to say that has not already been said already. Perhaps I should refrain from to many run-on sentences. A windy mostly clear evening and 78deg. It is pleasant to sit outside, coffee at hand. The news on npr, birds chirping and the rolling traffic as people return home from work. At a loss to provide a physical image, as I have covered this property so much it simply bores me. Weather this time of year is fun and exciting. People are coming out of their winter cabins. Preparing gardens, flower beds and getting the lawns ready for family backyard barques. The news this week is more of the same old. Depressing stories of country take overs, missing flights and those that died senseless deaths. Really only listen to it for the background noise. The sound of people talking, allows me to feel not so alone. There is a story in its self, one that really could bore a person I am sure of that. As to my news of the week, I have been having a hard time this month. I turned 36, spent it sleeping. In-part because I was wallowing in self petty, partly from a genuine depression that I have come to accept. Couple that with the fact that, my dream is well stuck in between conception and reality. Sadly this really makes for a o-bother read. None the less I felt like writing. After all when stuck at home, unable to create. As an artist the urges to create something manifests one way or another. I choose to be some what constructive and write this evening. In the past month, I have tweeted well over 1500 times, sent around 5oo e-mails and facebooked too much. Why? Lack of better wording, to “Pedal My Wears”. To express my strong desire to move forward in my life. To remove my self from a disabled SSDI receiving male, and transform my self into a full time professional artist. I say artist and not photographer, because I do not take photos for money. Rather I capture moments and objects along with places. As they strike me, transforming them into my own little creation of photographic art. The simple act of using my camera brings great joy to me, but the full release comes when I take that raw image. Process it and creatively make it my very own. Having a finished piece that truly stands on its own. This month I have received many complements on my work both visual and writing. As that truly is gratifying to hear. It falls short of showing me, the same as if people actually bought or invested in my growth. To me “Great Job” feels good, but I can not pay bills with that. Nor can I use that to get out and continue the “Great Job”. Please do not think I am feeling negative, rather disappointed. The difference is, you can improve disappointment you cant improve a negative. My life goals truly rely on my ability to create. My dream of building something for myself, and for my sons. Something that they can see even though they can not be with me. And life may be difficult now, life can become something great. With hard work and a positive attitude. There is so much to my dream, so much more than just being behind the lens. If you read through my blog postings and website. You will get much more of the picture. Like how I did that:) Picture me photographer, ha I guess its just me that finds that funny and neat. Anyways this is getting long for a blog post, so short I will be. Asking you for money is so ugly, what I am asking you. Is to invest in an opportunity. To assist a man to enable himself to build a life. One that he can sustain himself. As well as return the opportunity to others in the future. If for some reason or another your not able to support me financially today please pass this on to your family and friends. As someone in your circle, will be able to relate and able to invest. Thank you so much for your time this evening. Enjoy my work, and have a great night. PasjrWoctx
Posted on: Fri, 28 Mar 2014 00:10:54 +0000
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