Weve been getting many a question from fans and I would like to address them in the Facebook forum. They do not go under appreciated or unnoticed. Nostalghia Latinoamerica What inspired you to write Nervosa Rex? Me: You know. I NEVER speak on the meaning behind songs. Because I think its so incredibly important to remember that once the music exits my mouth it is longer mine. It is for the world. However, I dont believe in stagnance. Every now and again I like to shock myself. So I will tell you, and Ill get high on the shock of it. Telling you is a very human thing to do. It will connect you to me, for a moment, and because I think that is what you are looking for, Im going to give it. That one in particular was written during a time that I felt utterly lost. I was stepping into campus fountains, just to feel alive. If you havent done that, do it. Do it at night so you dont know what is beneath your feet. I was coming out of a relationship with a man that I lived with, who meant a great deal to me. It was a relationship that couldnt work. Because I was not whole enough to give truth. I was not sure what my truth was. And he was too young to understand that a destroyed girl needs time to become a strong woman. I was living in a shitty, small piano room. Teaching myself how to play. Writing these songs that would be sent back and forth between my bandmate and I. Living day to day. Hoping. Doing ecstasy with shamans to see if I could find love. To see if I ever knew what love was. I want you to know that I dont support drug use. Not because I give a shit how that might be perceived, but because I love the people that listen to me, and I want my words to love them and give them enough strength that they dont need to turn to a pill. That they can believe in something bigger. More powerful. More moving. NEED is the key word here. I dont condone the need for a drug. And what I assumed was experimentation, quickly turned into masked need. Luckily my transformative power is larger than my destruction. That song was captured time, captured emotion, of a human moment, that we all have. To see the fire burning the home you built behind you, while reaching towards some kind of crystallized hope of a better tomorrow. Between life and death. And I will tell you that the middle zone has never been a place I rest well in. -Ciscandra
Posted on: Tue, 10 Jun 2014 19:12:12 +0000
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