What a morning I have had I sat here and remembered I had bought a ticket for the Euromillions .... You have no idea how my mind has been spinning houses for my daughter and son, grandchildren to have trust funds my sons band to be invested in because I believe in them a special home built for my parents and I to share, family debts written off then some dreams to come true, friends with fybro that never have to work again , new cars not flash fast ones but for those who desperately need one, trips to the Mayo clinic for some friends that need a second opinion, two specially adapted bungalows for two ladies who inspire me beyond belief, a friend who needs debts paid and a new home, sponsoring children on every continent, the donkey sanctuary, the cancer charities the St Davids foundation, the lymphodema service in Wales, the hospice movement, childrens hospitals... People I want to spoil on the other side of the Atlantic ( oh no my passport is out of date and there are delays in getting one) its ok I will hire my Lucy to go over with unlimited funds to do my good deeds for me, help is needed in British Columbia and Alberta, Wisconsin some spoiling to do in California a whole load of help needed in Ireland. No I didnt win but for that ten minutes when I thought of the people I love and strangers I will never meet but their stories touch my heart it was so worth the £2 I spent on that ticket... It made me think two things, the first how irritated I feel when people say I wouldnt know what to do with it all ... Pass it along to the agencies who do! Secondly I thought of Robin Williams and realised that though life is a little rough right now I am tired I get down I get anxious I am NOT depressed because a clinically depressed person who is having an episode cannot think about tomorrow or have hopes ... They would like to but are at the bottom of a well with steep glass sides. I was sort of sad that it was revealed he was in the early stages of Parkinsons because it will take away from the huge issue of depression those uncomfortable with mental health issues will happily write off his passing by saying he was unable to face the Parkinsons wrong... That will have been a tiny added pressure x so had I won the Euro last night a big donation would have gone to the charities that can and do help those in their dark moments. Sorry I couldnt help you all this morning ... But I also bought a ticket for tonight :) x
Posted on: Sat, 16 Aug 2014 08:51:00 +0000
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