What happened to the happy, bubbly you? People saying this kinda hurts. Yes, I know Im not super happy and giggly anymore, you wouldnt be either if getting out of bed in the morning brought tears to your eyes. Youve changed so much, your attitude doesnt suit you. Soccer and cross country were just sports theyre not everything, just find something else to do. To me, soccer and cross country were how I was going to get into collage before the idea of being away made me cringe. Thats what my life used to revolve around, and its kinda hard to have things ripped away from you with five words at an appointment. You can never run again. My heart dropped whenever she said that. But I draw and paint now so Ive figured other things out. Stop telling me to get over it. Its not that easy. Youre not as social anymore. Going out hurts. Having sleepovers is difficult because almost EVERY time I go to a friends house it ends up with my parents coming and getting me. I cant go out to the mall and walk around for hours, it would be fun but it just cant physically do it. People comparing themselves to me to make themselves feel better because they assume that Im confident and not emotional hurts. Im not a super confident person all the time. I am as emotional as everyone else. I just suck it up and hide it whenever people are around because I dont like showing how I feel a lot. I cry like everyone else. Never assume. I love all my friends. No matter how much we all argue, change, grow together or apart. No matter how much or how little we talk. I dont do gossip, I hate it, and I would very much like for any of it about me or my friends to stop. I dont want to hear about something that someone thought that one of my friends did. And I dont want to hear about how people think my relationship is going. I got a message from someone asking if I was looking for a new guy because Chandler and I were breaking up soon because thats what someone told them. Chandler Musgrove and I have a wonderful relationship. He and I have been dating for two years and eight months, we have no relationship problems. We argue sometimes, yes, but everyone does. I cant for drama to stop so I can have my friends back.
Posted on: Fri, 21 Nov 2014 22:22:12 +0000
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