When I started this page, My Weight War, it was with the thought that no one would know my name or my face or anything about me EXCEPT that Im a compulsive overeater. In this way, I figured, I could and would be honest, courageously honest, in describing how my Life is and has been governed by such a crippling compulsion. How it has shaped and affected my personality and choices--and continues to do so. I then started writing for myself but since I did that anyway at home on Word, I found I wanted to connect with other compulsive eaters. So I went on other sites where people like me were but found instead, a large group of people who are going to the gym; walking miles with their fitbit; doing Weight Watchers; counting carbs or whatever their plan of choice is; increasing their drinking of water: and many of them are succeeding. I read over and over again, daily, about someone else crossing the line, beating the struggle. So I took down suggestions, made tons of notes, became more conscious of my bodys need to drink more water, poured (POURED) inspirational quotes, sayings, stories, other peoples successes, failures and triumphs into my head; watched affirming-building YouTube videos mid-morning or late night; and cut out, cut down, minimized, eliminated, increased and decreased every bit of food I was eating. I changed the size of plates, the size of portions, the times I ate, what I ate, where I ate. I cleaned out the kitchen more than once by emptying every cabinet and every shelf in every nook and cranny. I pulled everything out of the refrigerator and inspected and chose what went back in and what didnt. I did the same with everything in the freezer. I started downloading free E-books. I made purchases along the way of a juicer and a spirelli. I started purchasing selected books on: juicing, eating clean, eating raw. I went to some workshops. I participate on posting boards. I collect more recipes than I ever thought I would have in my life. I have tried more recipes than I ever have in my life. I park the car further away. I walked a mile to deliver a drink rather than had just dropped it off. I tell myself maybe I should get a fit bit. I deliberately keep myself out of the kitchen and at other times, take it on. I have tried to stop eating almost all processed foods. Some moments in some days I do better than others. Overall, the length of my time where I eat cleaner and less, is good. And, I still eat compulsively. I live my life in a food war. Welcome to My Weight War. ~Lynne
Posted on: Mon, 22 Sep 2014 14:38:00 +0000
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