When the Holy Spirit Compels His people to go into the deepest water that others could not even enter because they would be taken in - His people are called to greatest works through Him This is a beautiful ending after coming out of the waters of the great deep seas of life. When i dived deep into deepest darkest areas to esp help those that i could help after i had been saved it was quite horrific esp at times and yet also its where i learned and grew even the strongest spiritually even though this last time physically it almost did me in. Great thing is that i am still alive and made it back out with now my husband too who needed me the most at a time in his life when it was the darkest for him and everyone else had turned their backs on him for all that he had done (guess he reminded me of my father and what he went through and what was done to him by his family yet then i could not do anything more for my father because i did not really know all that i came to know about God then). But my husband said as part of his vows at our wedding --that i was his angel that God sent to save him from the darkness~ I am resting now - i am tired and i dont care what anybody says - i deserve it!!! You go through all i have gone through in life and do what i have in victory through God in the name of Jesus Christ and through the Holy Spirit and still do what i have done and even try to live to tell about it and then i will listen to you - some of you would not have lasted or last even a day in my shoes with Erin LOL So i have no reason to care about what anyone thinks or wants because while those who knew him were going on with your lives and going on about your businesses and with family gathering and festivities etc etc --- i was the one who was struggling with him and dying inside watching him struggle and suffer with his addiction/withdraws/pain and knowing him on the streets and facing death possibly even each and every day and praying for him night always and reading the bible to him even while he was asleep finally at times when i was able to be with him through some of his deepest dark times in his life. then finally him coming out of all that after 5 long years of knowing him and trying to help him as God guided me. Then when first break through came yet we still had a very long road of another five years of being together and engaged and married that were not made in heaven with someone like him at all but serious obstacles and hardships we faced because the devil just did not want to let go of him since he had previously esp. gotten himself involved in the occult group in prison and therefore having to overcome with him all the stronghold still from so many directions was one toughest things i have gone through then still. Then even making things worse those who were adding to all still that was about all one could take on their own not only without support but then on top of all with adding fuel to the fire. Yet the Lord taught me another thing ... that when one has Him on ones side that all we need is Him . So I AM NOT MAD AT YOU - JUST NEEDED TO LEAVE ME/US THE HECK ALONE AND DID NOT NEED TO TRY TO CAUSE TROUBLE BETWEEN US. WHERE WERE YOU WHEN MY NOW HUSBAND NEEDED YOU THE MOST??? EXACTLY DOING YOUR OWN THING SO NOW CONTINUE TO DO OUR OWN THING OR BE SUPPORTIVE TOWARD US. BUT THANKS YOU TO ALL--- STARTING WITH AND ESP MY FATHER WHO RAISED ME AND ALWAYS MADE ME FEEL LOVED DESPITE OVEaRLL ANYTHING:) FRANKLIN --EVEN THOUGH HE HAS PASSED IN SUCH A TRAGIC DEATH AND CIRCUMSTANCES BUT YET HE IS WHO PREPARED THE ROAD FOR ME TO BE MORE THAN A CONQUEROR IN LIFE LOVE YOU ALWAYS FOR ALL YOU DONE FOR ME NO MATTER WHAT. ALSO TO MY MOTHER JOSEPHINE WHO I NEVER REALLY FELT HER LOVE FOR ME OVERALL BUT THAT EVEN THOUGH SHE IS NOT PERFECT AND HAVE HAD A TOUGH TIME BEING CLOSE TO HER FOR MANY REASON THOUGH STILL GOD USED FOR A MANY SEASONS DESPITE ANYTHING TO HELP ME/US AND EVEN THOUGH WE DO NOT SEE EYE TO EYE AND DESPITE THAT SHE HAS HURT ME SO MUCH THAT I FORGIVE HER AND LOVE HER EVEN THOUGH IT HAS TO BE FROM AFAR NOW FOR THE SAKE OF MY RELATIONSHIP NOW WITH MY SON THAT I AM NOT WILLING TO LOSE HIM TOO AS SHE IS PART OF THE REASON THAT I HAVE LOST A RELATIONSHIP WITH MY DAUGHTER. SO UNTIL HOPEFULLY SHE CAN TURN HER LIFE TO THE LORD ONE DAY SOON AND ACCEPT THE LOVE OF GOD SO THAT I CAN TRUST HER NOT TO DO THINGS TO CONTINUE TO HURT ME WITHOUT ANY REAL CARE IN THE WORLD TIME AND TIME AGAIN. I KNOW DESPITE ANYTHING THOUGH THAT IN TIME ALL TRUTH COMES OUT DESPITE OF ANY AND ALL COVER UPS AND LIES THAT GO AROUND IN LIFE AND THAT GOD IS IN CONTROL OF ALL. SO I LIVE MY LIFE TRUSTING IN HIM TO DO THINGS IN HIS TIMING BECAUSE HE KNOWS BEST AND IS PERFECT. I FEEL FOR THOSE WHO ONE OF THEIR BIGGEST ENEMIES IS THIS TRULY THEIR OWN BLOOD ESP THEIR OWN MOTHER. I KNOW ALL PEOPLE MAKE MISTAKES AND NO ONE IS PERFECT AS A PARENT BUT THERE IS SOMETHING TOTALLY DIFFERENT ESP. WHEN ONE HAS TRIED TIME AND TIME AGAIN WITH A PARENT AND ALL THEY DO IS GO BACK TO HURTING YOU MORE THAN SOME STRANGER COULD EVER HURT YOU EVEN. I WILL NEVER BELIEVE THAT IS RIGHT AND I WILL NEVER ACCEPT IT OR EXCUSE IT EVEN THOUGH I WILL FORGIVE. OTHERWISE WHATEVER YOU ACCEPT - YOU BECOME. IF A CHILD DOES NOT WANT TO TRY IS ONE THING AND DOES NOT GIVE A PARENT A CHANCE AND THEREFORE THAT CHILD CANT SAY I REALLY TRIED DESPITE ANYTHING. BUT WHEN YOU TRIED AND BENT OVER BACKWARDS AS THE CHILD EVEN THEN IT SOMETHING SO HURTFUL AND ALL TOGETHER DIFFERENT. FOR SOME REASON IN SOME WAYS ITS WHAT MY FATHER WENT THROUGH WITH HIS MOTHER TOO. IT IS ONE OF THE TOUGHEST THINGS THOUGH TO DEAL WITH BEING TREATED DIFFERENTLY AND HURT OVER AND OVER BY YOUR OWN MOTHER AND JUST BECAUSE OVERALL REASON IS SOMETHING YOU CANT HELP IS THAT YOU REMIND HER OF YOUR OWN FATHER. THE MAN THAT SHE DECIDED TO HAVE ME WITH AND I HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH HER CHOICES IN AND PICKS IN MAN THAT SHE HAD A CHILD WITH ESP WHEN YOU DONT HAVE YOUR FATHER ANYMORE THAT YOU AT LEAST FELT LOVED BY AND THEN YOU DONT HAVE OTHER FAMILY THAT CARES. YET GOD HAS BLESSED ME AS YOU CAN SEE WITH MANY GREAT PEOPLE IN MY LIFE AFTER I EVEN LOST MY FATHER. SO GOD BLESS THOSE THAT HAVE BEEN THERE FOR ME THAT i COULD NOT HAVE DONE ALL THAT GREAT WORKS THAT GOD HAD PLANNED FOR ME WITHOUT GREAT TEACHERS AS IN MARVIN HARRIS, PASTOR CHRIS MCMILLAN AND MY OTHER GREAT MENTOR EVEN TO THIS DAY OWEN SALTER THAT GOD USED TO PREP ME FOR THE GREAT WORKS HE HAD IN STORE FOR ME AND EVEN THROUGH MY MISTAKES THEN TODAY AND TOMORROW HE WILL CONTINUE TO SEE ME THROUGH ME AND NOW US ALSO THANKS TO THE MANY GODLY WOMEN AND SISTERS IN CHRIST THAT GOD PUT IN MY LIFE ALSO DURING MY DISCIPLESHIP TIME AND EVEN IF IT WAS FOR A SEASON THAT WITHOUT ALL OF THEM TOO I WOULD NOT BE THE WOMAN THAT I AM TODAY SPIRITUALLY BECOME (TOO MANY TO MENTION YET GOD KNOWS WHO THEY ARE AND MAY HE BLESS THEM TOO ON MY BEHALF). ALSO BLESSING TO ALL THOSE WHO WERE NOT OR NOT YET OF THE CHURCH THAT WERE NOT AGAINST ME BUT THAT GOD ALSO USED HELP ME IN DIFFERENT WAYS ~~ I THEN VENTURED OUT ON MY OWN TO DO WHAT GOD HAD PLANNED FOR ME TO DO AND I NO LONGER NEEDED ANYONE TO TEACH ME AND I DID IT THROUGH HIM! ALL PRAISE HONOR AND GLORY TO MY FATHER IN HEAVEN IN THE NAME OF MY LORD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST AND HIS HOLY SPIRIT WHO IS NOW WITHIN ME AND HAS GUIDED ME TO DO ALL GOD INTENDED FOR ME TO DO THROUGH HIM. Happy to say that now my husband listens and takes care of me each and every day and the Lord has blessed me And if you dont like it who asked you if you did or not? FOR THOSE WHO HAVE OR HAVE HAD A SIMILAR SITUATION WHERE YOU FEEL ABANDONED ONE DAY BY ALL FAMILY ..KNOW THAT ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS CALL UPON GODS NAME AS THE SONG SAYS AND CRY OUT TO HIM AND HE WILL BE THERE WITH YOU EVERY STEP OF THE WAY AND HE WILL ADOPT YOU INTO HIS FAMILY AND HE WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU NOR FORSAKE YOU AND HE WILL BLESS YOU, GIVE YOU WISDOM AND FAVOR THROUGH THE THICK AND THIN AND BRING SOME OF THE GREATEST PEOPLE THAT WILL MAKE YOU GREATER THAN YOU COULD EVER IMAGINE FOR HIS GREAT WORKS! WHAT WAS MEANT FOR EVIL GOD WILL TURN ALL FOR YOUR GOOD WHERE EVER YOU GO AND HE WILL NOT TAKE AWAY ALL THE TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS BECAUSE WITHOUT THEM YOU COULD NOT POSSIBLY HAVE VICTORIES THROUGH HIM THAT HE MAY BE GLORIFIED AND PRAISED BECAUSE HE ALONE IS GOD!
Posted on: Tue, 13 Jan 2015 05:43:11 +0000
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