When you feel like the world is crashing down on you and you just cant take it anymore. The slightest bit of pressure can cause you to break. I dont wanna fall but it looks like Ive been doing so for awhile now. I dont know how much more I can take. My life just keeps down-spiraling and I feel nauseous. I dont know how much I can handle. My life is a mess and im shaking, the pain is the only sensation I feel anymore. Does anyone notice? Does anyone care? Possibly, possibly not. But what does anything matter anymore? Whats my purpose? I hear laughter from the people around me and I think What did I do to deserve this pain and suffering? Am I an evil person? Its just my way of coping I guess. I guess ill never be happy The said. But it is really a matter of happiness anymore? What is the true meaning of Happiness because lately Ive been wanting to be sad instead of this constant state of anxiety. Maybe theres a demon waiting to break its way out of me. The demons thats been haunting my thoughts over the past month or so. What do they want from me? Am I some kind of fortress for them? No, I am a human being. I deserve my right to feel free. Does freedom even exist? I dont know that. But what I do know is I have a general understanding of this life. Its not some cliche bullshit Things get better! Stay positive! The reality of it all is you will have a shitty life as long as you choose to let the demons take over. Concur them and youre free. Its just a matter of how you go about it I guess. I guess well never fully understand the wonders of life.
Posted on: Wed, 20 Aug 2014 01:58:38 +0000
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