When you love deeply and never get back the love in return, it cuts deeply. I have fathered 3 stunningly beautiful children, 2 from a horrible marriage that frankly I wish I could erase due to the deep emotional pain the mother of those 2 beautiful children caused me, my family and any close friends I thought I had. Her family a divorced mess of parents and step parents which she blamed for her reasons to treat me with such cruelty! Leading to me hurting so bad internally, so exhausted emotionally and knowing I was never going to survive with that woman in my life! I begged for help from all the wrong people. A divorce that ripped a part every dream, destroyed every relationship involved and ended up with having my 2 children stolen in the middle of the night, never to return leading to her ability to continue the pain she delivered while married. I met another who actually helped me realize just how messed up the prior was and had another beautiful son with whom I love deeply. Yet, the dream of being the father to those children was smashed to pieces! I was still being dragged through an emotional hell, still feeling the pain from a prior never ending assault of verbal abuse from the one I was trying to escape! The ex-wife who was never happy, was always happy causing me more pain. She made it so ugly, police at my door every parental visit. Constant false accusations to listen to in a court system with which was now her weapon of choice to continually abuse me, my parents, my sister and destroyed the relationships I attempted to build. A court system that I begged for help, only asked to help me stay in the life of my children only to be given ever deeper cruelty by that system. I love all 3 so deeply it hurts, yet all 3 are not a part of my life, nor do they wish to be due to the breakdown in the relationships with their mothers. A society that always blames the fathers, never helps them in anyway and leaves them out. My relationship with my parents forever altered due to that marriage and the utter cruelty of a person I let into my family, a toxic manipulative cruel person who could never find any happiness from anything beautiful that was brought into her life. Even after giving her 2 beautiful children, a home, a path to a secure financial future, it was never enough to keep her from saying the cruelest things. The 3 most beautiful achievements of my life, roam this cruel world without a father in their life.
Posted on: Sun, 09 Mar 2014 09:49:56 +0000
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