While my heart aches and I struggle to even imagine what normal could ever look like again without my Dad, I am also overwhelmed by the love Ive felt from the people in my life - near and far - during this tough time. Its been the worst week of my life, but I know Im going to be ok because of the support and love I have - and Im forever grateful for every person who showed their support, sent a text or message, came to his memorial, shared a sweet story about my Dad, or just took the time to let my family know you were there to help. I never understood what this would feel like, losing a parent like this... But I do know now that my life will never, ever be the same and its my decision of what direction that takes me. I choose family. I choose to never forget the sacrifices my Dad made throughout his life to keep our family happy, healthy, and together. And I will do the same. I will continue to live unconditionally and make beautiful memories with the family I have - blood and chosen. I choose to stay connected. No matter the distance, I will never let too much time pass by to tell the ones I love how I feel. Im lucky to have friends and family spread out across this country and Ill never take those relationships for granted. I choose health. They say all we have is our health and in so many ways this is true, which is why I vow to always make my health - mental, physical, and spiritual - a priority. I choose happiness. I will continue to make decisions that would make my Dad proud. The hard decisions, like moving to Seattle, that add to my happiness and ensure Im living this life I have with everything Ive got - experiencing it to the fullest. I struggled with words to share and I dont really know how to wrap my head around this whole thing... And I know thats ok and it will probably feel like this for a long time. But at this very moment I just am sad and that is ok and I will be ok. But my Dad will be so missed. So, so missed and I cant imagine not picking up the phone again to call him or getting another hug from him ever again. I cant imagine my world without him.
Posted on: Mon, 13 Oct 2014 02:12:16 +0000
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