With a smily face, I now see how beautiful you are, beautiful with everything in every sense, you shared with the whole world everything God gave you, you had the mind of God in you and that made your beauty so radiant... You stood through it all, it all came as a storm but never let go, I hear your voice daily... How great your love and correction, you gave me what you did not have, thats crazy though... You lived in the future at the moment to see me equal to my peers, you spent the money you have not even seen in your account and smiled like its nothing... You packed two food flasks and gave me one for school, but I was so greedy that I wanted to take yours thinking it might contain more food so when you went inside to get me pocket money, I swapped the food flasks... Getting to school with watering long throat, I licked the spoon with enthusiasm salivating all the way and gaze upon d cooler as I called it... I drank some water to aid the smooth swallow and forced the flasks open... Empty!!! Yes you came looking for me and yelled why did I take your food even youre late for work, You knew you didnt pack anything in there didnt you? But you did that to make me feel you had food while you went the whole day on empty bowel all to see me fed!!! You saw in me a great man when I saw in myself nothing but a small town trumpeter playing around the city making far peanuts... I was satisfied with that cos I could buy a pair of jeans n Ralph shirts (fake ones though). You knew I was going down in your spirit so you scolded me and said youll stop me from playing music if I score less in school again? Youre beautiful! You knew I wouldnt stop playing right... You spread your wings and shielded me from early destruction when at the age of 13 I was engaging some girls then cos... I was talented far above my capacity and not to deny the fact that I enjoyed the attention from those shorties.... But you said to me in bold and cold words... you would re-circumcise me if you ever see any girl around me or read any silly love letter from any girl again!!! That was mean though you said with a new Tiger blade in your hands you were gonna make some tribal marks on my Jacobs if you see me with the girls again.... And you let that dude whos now my father make gest of me then.... That was so mean! But wouldnt that Little trumpet player destroy himself if you didnt do that? I went Ontop of many older guys playing around then, my name was on the lips of many Band leaders... You saw me more than that right? Youre beautiful more than I can ever imagine, I feel you every day, I wanna kiss you more n more, youre an angel... Youre spiritual!!! November 17th 1999 could have just claimed my life due to an 11 month dripping wound on my left leg... You knew that wasnt just happening for the hell of it... You went spiritual with it and that night I suddenly felt some sound of echo in the room, I could see people outside through the walls, I was so light and felt like I had helium in me, I went up from the bed and looked around, then I saw me lying helplessly on that bed, I was doubled!! I was moving without moving my legs, I moved with my thought, wherever I felt like going in the room I found myself there... With the speed of thought! I didnt realize what happened until you screamed Noooo!!! And took your bible and you loins/girdle and wrap my head and body and crying and praying... I felt something pushed me from where I was standing into the bed with a loud sound of Thunder! I opened my eyes again and heard you saying you shall not die but live to declare the works of the Lord! Repeatedly till I got up and said Im thirsty and I asked what happened? You smiled and gave me a kiss on my fore head and said we prayed together! Really? You would have given up your soul for mine! But its fine by you... I cant say it all... You set it all up, you sent me through college when you were gone! You left to fight the battles you couldnt fight ordinarily... Always around me! Youre strong, youre great, youre a blessing to all who knew you, youre an example to all who want to be great, you my end n my beginning even when you lost you made me win! Youre beautiful! Youre my Mother!! And always youre Guidian Angel. I will love you till.... We dance again, and if theres a request I wanna make to God... I wish I sat with you again with your arms around me... Saying nothing just spend yet another day with you. Cos I didnt know you then but now I do, You live forever!!!!!
Posted on: Tue, 22 Jul 2014 16:09:21 +0000