With a very heavy saddened heart thats done a lot of hard crying this evening.. We had to put spinner down this evening by means of me giving the vet the ok to put him to sleep :( He was 17. I lost a buddy, I lost a friend. but most of all I lost someone who was like part of me if I were to go to the deepest part of my heart. Im very emotionally wrecked and distraught because I had to play God. Its not that I wanted to let him go that way but I couldnt in my heart keep seeing him deteriorate at the rate he was going. It had gotten to a point where he was in constant pain and he was starting to internally go aimless He was rapidly losing weight and he a lot of internal problems we tried our best to correct but never really could because his body wasnt letting him bounce back. Its been one of the hardest most emotional days Ive gone through. Its that love I have for him which allowed me to do what had to be done. There was no way he could continue, I would not allow it to happen. And it is because of that love that hes free now. free of the pain, free of the things that were deteriorating his body. I just wish in my heart he had passed away in a less painful manner. I just lost it at the vet, I couldnt hold back the pain and sadness I felt for him. There was nothing we could do.. All we could do is say goodbye and let a sedative plus an injection carry him on to the rainbow bridge. RIP Spinner, I hope wherever you are youre free.. I know what I did for you is something youd be proud of me for doing. You loved me unconditionally like I was your superstar.. You always smiled and looked up to me like I was ghandi. You were always there no matter what like a silent friend who didnt care about anything but love no matter how good, how bad. You were my little four legged human like Angel I will never forget. I miss you terribly and your loss hurts. Ive cried hard for almost eighteen years of special heartwarming joy you brought into my life along with comfort I can never duplicate myself. I miss you Spinner, it hurts, it hurts a lot. Ive cried, Ive shook. and above all Ive wept my love which allowed me to let your spirit go because I loved you that much ^cries* As you go off over the rainbow bridge.. Your spirit is free, I made sure of that. Go now, youve earned it. I love you and always will even if it it chokes me up as I write this. Rest in Peace, Be at Peace, Go in Peace Gentle Feline Angel Of Mine. Youre free. Until we meet again. Goodbye Spinner.. I love you, I always will. Darlene Bonniwell https://youtube/watch?v=Ginx7WKq5GE
Posted on: Tue, 07 Oct 2014 05:15:51 +0000
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