With light of day and shade of night, each breath is friend of fear. Depressive lows and manic highs, spent holding back my tears. I feel it pull into me. The need for peace inside. The wall that stands in front of me, my capacity for pride. If only I could put behind the daggers that I hold. What is to me no second thought to all remain untold. With all I have. I grasp and flail to struggle for the ledge. I cannot find my footing now. Im on the wrong side of the edge. Watching me you just cant see why I cannot be still. As you stand firm, Im falling down. It all beyond my will. I see it now from where I stand. My will wont get me through. I cant get through this on my own. Its God I need and you. To turn it over from where Ive been is harder than it looks. Its in my flesh, its in my blood. I cant rip out the hooks. If Im to live I must let go of all that is in me. With anger, fear, my discontent removed I could be free. You sit before me face aglow. And wait for me to follow. To walk where I have never been. My doubts so hard to swallow. To get what you have, I would forfeit all I have to give. The questions rise from where I lie. Is it enough for me to live? Ive nothing else Ive used it all. Ive never been this scared. Still inside an endless book. One page of which Ive shared. Ill give my best. I will go on. Ive no more will to lie. The reason spills from out my mouth. I just dont want to die.
Posted on: Sun, 24 Nov 2013 06:08:35 +0000
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