Wow! I was just going through a really down time and it seemed I was gonna get worse and worse, then look who appears. My late mother. She is a hummingbird cause hummingbirds loved her when she was alive. If she were here shed tell me to smarten up and get my ass in gear. Fall, & winter ate just seasons and life goes on no matter what time of the year it is. Shes right as usual. Fall is pretty and the air is crisp and invigorating. The morning dew tickles my toes cause I still wont give up My sandals. And winter is when Christmas happens and I get to spoil Billie and Thi. And theres a lot of pretty lights and music and anticipation in the air. I know a lot of people are against Christmas but my gramma raised me liking it and she didnt speak English and so I dont think she was brain washed or conditioned. She just liked being part of happy, peaceful situations. Sometimes I just want to be a part of things instead of always on the outside looking in. I can do it. My mother was too - liked being a part of life. Thats probably whats got me down. I miss being for things. Im against so much stuff. I dont know if Im Going to drop out of everything. Its not me to be anti this and anti that. I just dont know how thats going to unite us by being so negative about everything. So I want to be a hermit-which is what Ive wanted to be ever since I was a child. My mother understood why I wanted to be one. She understood even more just before she passed away cause she felt she wasnt allowed to Speak to her sisters cause they were on the other side. So gonna get with it by moving out of it. Everything will keep on keeping on. Like my last boss said I am not indispensable and its tries. Therell be someone else there instead of me. One who can happily be Auntie this and Auntie that. I prefer to be a gramma and a mom. Good night and sweet dreams my darlings. Prayers for safe passage through the night and if it is the Creators will we shall have the gift of another day in the sacred Circle of Life. Homalgh.
Posted on: Fri, 18 Oct 2013 05:25:48 +0000
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