Yep, i did. When i fell inlove with him, i was so deep in it. I went through shit hell with love, but still managed to love him. This was the first time i had felt someone loved me for just natural me. So many breaks up later, i felt more anger and fustration that my life took a suicidal turn for the worst as well as being heavily depressed. Thats why i turned to you because you lit up my world again. A happiness that i once had. So my heart turned and i started loving you. 4 days in to our relationship matea, i still had that tiny bit of love there for him. It was hard to let him go knowing i was burdend with our memorys. But eventually i let him go. I didnt want him back. i didnt want to go through drama again. i was hooked on to you. I dont think you would understand what love was then because you had never been deeply in love like i was. The one thing you wont understand ? Im sick of being called the worst things in the world by you. Being shafted by you. I cant even talk to you without us arguing over unexplained situations . Im so tired of walking out doors to mend my thoughts. Im so done with it all. 1 year and 4 months later you pull out this card, why? You wont let me tell you or let me explain, so here it is. Yep, you can leave me in taranaki, i could care less. At least i would have people to run to and not outside. You should just sometimes, think about things before assuming how it was. Love is the hardest thing to let go of, now, its just hard to trust. Son is the only one that keeps me together. I try, and i try. I did make mistakes. But dont forget i still think of it all. You still do wrong things that i have to forget. This time, im just unsure.
Posted on: Sat, 30 Aug 2014 09:24:40 +0000