Yesterday, I posted about a quite extraordinary spiritual twin flame sort of relationship Ive been experiencing with my friend Dennis, and I wanted to share some epiphanies the two of us have been uncovering together as we came together in Australia this week after three months of living on separate continents. Yesterday, as we stood on a cliff overlooking the ocean, gazing into each other’s souls through the windows of our eyes, I had yet another of many epiphanies I’ve had since I met Dennis. As I looked into his pupils, I saw God consciousness, reflecting back to me the God consciousness within me. And as I looked into his blue irises, I saw myself in his eyes, a literal mirror, as if God was looking out at God itself, and in that union, something much larger than either of us was activated. There was no separation, a merging of energy bodies that dissolved any of the illusion of separation that accompanies the ego. The intimacy of such a moment is almost unbearable on a human level. Of course, we are all God consciousness, gazing out at the world through human eyes, and yet most of us have forgotten Who We Really Are. When you Remember Who You Are- when you un-forget that you are not God consciousness, when you dissolve the illusion of what the yogis call “maya” in the presence of another human being, it is extraordinary beyond words. To call it “love” feels diminishing. It’s too laden with lower vibration meanings in our language. Yet, I’ll call it love- Divine love, maybe- for lack of a better word. I’ve written a lot of posts about “boundaries” inspired by my relationship with Dennis, yet, in this state of two humans un-forgetting that we ARE Love Itself, Dennis and I remembered that love is the strongest thing there is, and it doesn’t need to be defended. You don’t have to protect the open heart because the heart is the greatest defense we have. You don’t have to erect walls because the walls only defend the ego and its insane illusion of separation. I’ve been arguing with therapists for four years because they say I have “boundary issues,” and on this human level, they’re right. Learning the difference between judgment and discernment, for example, has served me well. Learning to step out of the role of either the Narcissist or the Echo, is strengthening all my other relationships. And yet, my argument with my therapists has revolved around this intuitive knowing I’ve had, that love doesn’t need to be defended, that love itself is the defense, that forgiveness is always a more powerful defense than iron walls around the heart, that we must give people permission to break our hearts, because it’s only the ego that gets hurt. As Byron Katie says, egos cant truly love because they always want something. Egos are vulnerable to disappointment, hurt, anger, and suffering, But Love is untouchable. Love can’t be hurt. Love doesn’t need to be guarded against. Love doesn’t separate us. And yet, it is the ultimate paradox. While love is the strongest thing we have, it also makes us the most vulnerable on the level of the ego. When we love as much as we can love when we are two humans embodying God consciousness together, un-forgetting Who We Really Are in each other’s presence, it’s terrifying on a human level. It feels like there’s so much to lose, so much preciousness the ego wants to cling to. And yet love doesn’t cling because love grants another unconditional love and freedom (though on the human level, you may have unconditional love and freedom- plus highly conditional ACCESS to your inner circle.) Dennis’s realization about all this (which I’m sharing with his full consent), is this: The only people who can hurt you are the people who you allow to come close, the ones you are in intimate relationships with. Once they hurt you- break your trust, betray you, disagree with you- all those things create an artificial sense of separation. The only way to really connect with someone is to let go of all of the stuff that is closing down your heart and grasping at your belly. No one on the outside is hurting you. It’s all YOU hurting you. Although it’s important on the ego level, to make things work on a human level, it also prevents you from connecting with someone at this level of God consciousness. It brings us back to the original definition of the word “forgiveness,” which is based on the Greek word meaning to let go of your opinions and judgments of the actions of others. You might make up stories about another, thinking “You broke my trust, you insulted me, you hurt me with your actions or your words.” All of those thoughts of separation divide you from another and make it impossible to experience this level of Divine intimacy. To forgive means to let go of your opinions of the other. It’s also letting go of the physical responses in your body, the physical distance that you’ve created- the tensions that are creating you from even sustaining eye contact with another. When you let go of the judgments and physical defenses, you can truly make contact with others at this higher level. You realize that there’s nothing keeping you separate. All the stuff that is feeling hurt or mistrusting, even in the name of “healthy boundaries,” is actually creating separation. Once you let go, you realize that the separation is only created by the ego. Your actions create the separation, but at your essence, there is no separation and no one can hurt you. You are One, and Love is all there is. I don’t understand any of this on the level of the rational mind. But I wanted to share this experience with you because I sense that more and more souls are going to be choosing to engage in these kinds of relationships, and as someone who has been in the cauldron of such a relationship, I just want to encourage those of you on this cusp of this kind Big Love to say YES. Don’t run away from the call to wake up together. Don’t let your ego win the battle (and yes, it WILL feel like a battle.) Don’t miss the opportunity to un-forget Who You Really Are or to experience this kind of intimacy with another human being. When you say yes, you heal not just yourself and the other, you heal the planet, and we need this now more than ever…
Posted on: Wed, 03 Dec 2014 23:42:18 +0000
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