Yesterday I went to lay down and take a nap so I would feel okay later while going out with my friends.. My nap started at 3pm and I didnt wake up until 3am. :( Things like this have always been hard for me.. So many missed opportunities, missed friendships, ruined relationships and worst of all an inability to attend college or have a career or independence of my own. Moments like right now are always extremely difficult for me, knowing that the sick girl (who looks completely normal) missed out once again. BUT for the first time in a long time I have hope. I know that on my own I am getting so much stronger. Im finally realizing that my health is my number one priority and there is no man or drama or anything that can distract me from that anymore. Im learning how to rely on myself for my happiness and I every day I am slowly become a stronger and happier new woman. Ive also found a program that will help me to learn to live my life to the fullest even with all of the pain and exhaustion I suffer through daily. Its an amazing blessing I never knew was even possible. The best gift I could ever ask for. I was just laying here thinking how truly blessed I have been these past few months. So much in my life has changed. At first I didnt think I could possibly live though all the heartbreak that I went through.. But now I am so thankful. I am slowly becoming the strong and independent, amazing woman I always knew was inside of me somewhere , its taking time and it wont happen over night but I truly believe by the end of all this I will be that woman. I couldnt possibly be more blessed. ❤️❤️❤️
Posted on: Fri, 19 Dec 2014 10:59:37 +0000