Yesterday was a hard day for me. When I woke up this morning I didnt know how I would feel. Im never happy or excited anymore, I walk around with a heavy cloak of sadness weighing me down. When I look in the mirror I hardly recognize the person I see. I wish so much I could go back to the day Coleman was born. Most of the time the only thing I look forward to is the weekend so I can stay in my bed or on the recliner. Today was better. I got up and went to work till noon then I went home to wait until mom, Caleb, and Susan got off work so we could go look at the sign in person and go eat for Colemans birthday. I found myself a little happy and a little excited to know that someone cared so much about us and Coleman to put his picture and a birthday message up on that huge sign. To see Colemans big smiling face lit up on that big sign was amazing and I was so excited for him. My kids are my life they always come first. Im am so thankful that God allowed me to be Colemans mom. I so thankful that I had him for almost 14 years! I always told my boys the same thing my dad told us, youve got to love Jesus more than anyone even your mom and dad. Coleman did just that and when Jesus wanted him to go live with Him Coleman ran to Him! Through everything over this past year God has been with us and blessed us, He has protected us and helped us. He has not forsaken us but carried us when we were to weak. I am still broken and I truly think I always will be but I TRUST GOD! I know he loves us and that no matter what our future holds HE holds our future!! I will walk in the light of The Lord and I will draw my strength from Him and His Word! My God has not failed me yet!! I know He will never fail me!!!! Trusting God Colemans mom
Posted on: Fri, 12 Dec 2014 05:03:59 +0000
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