You see, depression isnt not being able to smile, its not standing around while your friends tell a joke and not being able to laugh. Depression is laying in bed and debating whether to break your streak of laying in bed for a week Depression is wondering if leaving your room is worth the energy Depression is answering ‘im fine’ when someone asks you how you are, saying ‘nothings wrong’ when you would rather throw up your sadness into their lap, saying ‘please, please, please, do something, sort through this, make sense of this, ive spent so many years trying to figure out what it means and i just want someone else to give me the answers, please, ive given up’ Depression is when youre already in over your head and you just keep wading out, because this isnt so bad, its easy not to breath if you pretend you never did to begin with Depression is hearing the company line of ‘youre not alone’ of ‘i want to help but i can’t if you dont let me’ of ‘just try being happy’ of ‘your depression is too much and i dont want to be around you anymore’ Depression is trying to numb yourself to everything youre feeling, its thinking being empty is the same as being full, its trying to talk around a mouthful of blood, having too much blood in your mouth but not enough in your veins Depression is not about not being happy, about not being able to laugh. Depression is about an underlying hopelessness, sadness to everything Something that i have only ever been consumed by.” - user chasing-ghosts-again from tumblr
Posted on: Thu, 08 Jan 2015 07:45:26 +0000
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