You will always find a reason to love someone. You will seek out someone open to you where you can share you with them and while they are grateful, they have no activity to match what you do...for them. You will make excuses for your cold bed and torn heart and stay out of some negro slave induced spiritual that will tell you to stay through the hard times because this is Gods will for your life though never has He willing given his children to perish at the devils hands so consider this post a way out. Because you will take neglect and diss other women about taking beatings because you are too ignorant to realize you both are being abused. Because you will take her calling you out your name and talking to you crazy because it reflects your mothers display of love for you. You will settle...with your sideways confident self you will settle. Then after they has grown tired of you or you apply pressure they release you clumsily and effortlessly like a balloon held on by a two year old. You realize that you only occupied minimal space and allocated time for things and people that dont matter....and then it begins. The rants of no good men or women. The blame game and the prayer request all because what you reduced to love wasnt that. It wasnt even lust. It was nothing. In the end you were nothing, you had nothing, and your willingness to accept this lets you know how you really see you...as nothing. You are more valuable than you think and more priceless than you know. peace, love, poetry ~cj #xblurayne
Posted on: Mon, 28 Jul 2014 12:50:21 +0000