..but I feel whats to happen, all happened before. I just watched Saving Mr. Banks, the story of Disney and Mary Travers, the back story. And this really has very deep reverberations for me, apart from the language part, as in I just wrote about Banks today, and also see, Bubank, CA, as in the Disney locale, in the movie. I am keyed to a cosmic story. This makes me weep. Maybe nobody will ever EVER, see what I am seeing. At the end, the weather vane, made me truly feel, the depth of this, because not long before, David showed me a weather vane on a web site, for our barn. An elephant. I cannot recount how it all makes me feel, how it is, to feel a Story was created just for me, that is this synchronous. Mary Poppins is recently a very deep part of our life, since Jasmine loves this movie, and we have played it, now countless times. Once upon a Story for me. Because years ago, I was brought to spend a weekend at my cousin Donnas. Nobody schooled me in Jewish Orthodoxy. And I felt totally uncomfortable, being thrust, into a situation that brought a child, from a Jewish background that was not at all orthodox, into a situation that embarrassed her so totally. I didnt understand why a man would be coming to put the lights on an off, this being work on the Sabbath, nor that it was not right to be carrying a bag to the synagogue. In fact, I discovered Mary Poppins, at my cousins and spent the entire weekend, immersed in her, not being able to put her down. Yes, I do remember. I remember so much about my childhood, and how a Story, ones own story, so reverberates in a movie script. How the issue of forgiveness, of carrying ones past and needing to let go is also such a part of this Story. All I can say, is, I have put my life on the line here. Bleeding down the pages, and nobody, not those I have worked with, none of my friends, my family, Nobody, not anyone has ever responded to this content. This Story is invisible. And yet it is, extant. Everything I do, everywhere I go, I am being followed, and I feel like this story had to have been written, expressly for me. And this does, make me weep. My face is peeling, this was in the movie too. How I am being brought so totally to my knees, in every possible way. You can have no idea. And I am putting this on line, because of a Vow I made, which I have kept.
Posted on: Sun, 16 Nov 2014 23:15:20 +0000
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