how i deserve the treatment ive received i do not know. i never knew being loyal and faithful and loving was something u play around with and just toss aside like its nothing. i just wish i knew what was really going on. i dnt understand how someone can say they love you wanna be around everyday to boom 180 it has driven me to insomnia, no sleep for almost 2 days basically. and u know what i admit, i was alittle pushy and asked alot of questioins and didnt totally take ur word is because you gave me reason to. you earn your trust and word back you dont just get it. and if u are all about me like u claimed to be and acted like it for awhile now what the heck happened in 3 days thats would cause this to happen. ur supposed to change ur number to protect yourself fr4om people who are gonna do you harm, instead you change it n leave me in the dark, broken and not even knowing what happend, i truely have a severed heart. and just wanna know whats so bad about me that i cant have the loyalty love and trust i give in return and have it be me and only me. i dont get whats so wrong with me i feellike im a worthless piece of shit good enough for noone and kept trying and stgayin w the woman i loved because i tried to work past shit and see the good in her and i stand by her side (and yes an asshole at times because of what ive been through) but it was never for no reason. a little excessive rarely, yes, but if you love someone and act and play like u do anyway, youd be able to understand that only you can gain your trust back and how i been treated last 36 hours is the opposite i sit here with tears dripping down to my hands wondering whats gonna happen.... dont know where to start or how to possibly think about having to maybe let you go forever. that thought is just surreal and shouldnt be esp when you how much i love you and would always make sure ur ok. but at the end of the day ive done everything i could to have u all to myself. ive shown you the ultimate definition of love in every way, even tough love sometimes when u didnt wanna hear it. ur best interests were always on my mind and always have been. if u are leaving me for good i would appreciate an honest explanation as to why i deserved this and 2 i would appreciate if you would pay me my income tax that ive been waiting 9 months for. this will be a sleepless night for me and one of manry to come just hope my love is appreciated one day and that my heart and loyalty are valued over people who have fooled you for ages now. look in front of u and realize whos the real man and whos the fake n if u take that road i already told u so because as much as i love you if u leave you leave for good :( and how u could just walk away n do thus right now after how much effort uve put in trying to prove urself to me is just pizzling and hurts me very badly. i hope my heart one day will heal and i can have the strength to go through my days and pass this semester of school and make sure i go to work those are the only things i have left now the feeling i have right now is indescribable many emotions but mostly upset, betrayed, and truely heart broken it was never a question of if i was loyal n faithful to you, any person i know would tell you that, and u know i would never put u in a spot like this or ever hurt u u meant too much to me just wonder what happened for this to occur n leave me with no answers or obligations u need to live up too hopefully we talk soon maybe one day youll realize what a good man i was
Posted on: Mon, 23 Sep 2013 04:29:04 +0000
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