insert 36 so we walked hand in hand to the library, we talked about everything, i told him about my fam at venda and the night i found out i wasnt myself, he told me about his fear of heartbreak trev: i hate being rejected me: nobody loves rejection trev: am just happy you changed your mind about us, i was starting to blame my looks, i know am too cute to be your boyfriend, people must be shocked about us me: yeah am one of em trev: but i love you me: you have no choice trev: its funny how things change neh, i mean i so wanted to sleep with you but now i dont, i just want to know you and protect you, and make you laugh, sometimes make you jealous :-P i wanna protect you and hold you tight at every chance i get(squeezed me against his chest) i wanna kiss your nose and count your fingers and think about you everytime me: thats exhausting trev: itll be worth it me: wanna know a secret? trev: no me: good coz i wasnt gonna tell you anyway, i was gonna make you beg but never tell trev: hahaha yeah right, these eyes will make you tell everything me: why me? trev: why you? me: why choose me? trev: well i dont know, you kinda turn me on, you are a survivour, with things i done to you, you would have dropped out or killed yourself, but you ddnt, and thats i chose you besides that kiss we shared the other day, me: i feel like a dude now trev: haha why? me: i dont know, you seem to know me better than myself and thats my category, guess youll just be the lady in relationship trev: ill be everythin for us me: if this is a joke or a scam ill comeby your house, call the police and kill myself trev: lucky me we got to the library, i forced him to get in, returned the book and took another one me: hey wanna do your homework here? trev: crusly? me: yah take a sit trev: with you staring at me? me: haha ild rather stare at that hot guy trev: oh please, the only hot guy in here is me me: haha please! now sit down and do your homework! trev: yes maam , geez mpho dont do that me: lol you need that trev: no dont, i hate being instructed, i end up doing the opposite me: ok dont do your homework? :-\ trev: lol you cute me: dont shut up and dont let me do my homework trev: okay two hours and we out of here me: deal we sat there and started with our homeworks, at first it was hard to concetrate coz he was staring at me and drawing funny things, but eventually he got crus and we got on with our school work, he started taking books and refering stuff, he was busy with his assignments, he looked excited me: getting all the right answers? trev: jah this lab is great, i mean they have everything me: and i wonder why thy call it a library trev: get back to your homework me: ay yay captian i finished my homework and watched him flip books back and forth, he got too concentrated and i decided to start with my novel, we sat thr for four hours, he looked smart wen he was busy with his books, he looked different, more like carlos, i just looked at him, i liked him like that, he was calm and in control of his business for once, he glanced at me and smiled, i smiled back. trev: just five more minutes babe (he kissed my palm, it tickled :-P ) me:take your time finally he finished up tre: shall we? me: please i now hate this place trev: lol dont be jealous, just bcoz we connected more than you, dont worry the lab will be my sidechick me: haha i dont mind trev: are you sure? me: no? trev: muffins? me: no thanks, unless you want history to repeat itself trev: oh yah, muffins are a no no for you me: i just wanna go home trev: aah come on, lets grab somthng to eat first, me: nah trev: i know you want it, i know you want it, (singi.g) me: lol haha, oky docks trev: goodgirl, let me find a book to read too we went out and headed to the mall, we got something to eat and took a bus home, he got off first trev: see you tmrw? me: if lucky trev: take (he kissed me) love you me: i know you do trev:mxm he got off, i just could say it back, i wanted to but i couldnt, i checked my phone and there where six missed calls from carlos, i called him back carlos: hey where are you? me:(excuse me? :-\ ) huh carlos: ive been trying to get hold of you me: i was busy carlos carlos: okay i just wanted to know if you where okay, do you think you should be dating in this time? me:what time? carlos: you know,your mom at the hospital and stuff me: i dont understand carlos: you should be supporting your mom. me: tell you what, tmrw ill go see her carlos: and you going with me me: deal carlos: i saw the way you felt safe with trev today, i thought i was your safe place me: carlos please dont confuse me carlos: i just want our friendship to stay valid regardless of whom we dating me: itll always be valid carlos: okay, ill see you tmrw, am freaking out? me: jah you need to relax carlos: night mpho what does he want from me kanti? doesnt he want me to be happy? should i wait for him while i watch him enjoy? i love him so very much but i deserve to be loved back too i got off and went home, fifi and lenny whr already home, i strolled to my room, fifi flwd me fifi: why you late munchie me: i was at the library fifi: oh okay, so red or blue? me:blue? fifi: i knew yould pick blue lenny: then its decided, our babys room will be blue arg mxm! i closed my door and took a long shower, after that i went to sleep, fifi came in with dinner fifi: here munskin me: no thanks am full fifi: whats going on munskins me: nothing, fifi: i cant fix it if you dnt tell me me: you always busy fifi, i never see you anymore, my mom has cancer did you know? fifi: what? me: exactly, this stupid house is all you care about now, my baby this my baby that the house this the house that, my mom is dying! excuse me please fifi: y cnt you be happy for me, me:bcz your new life excludes me fifi: thats not true me: night fifi
Posted on: Mon, 11 Aug 2014 20:11:18 +0000
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