ok this is going to be my very last ranting. bear with me as i simply cannot hold it in....years of the forced therapy have taught me not to. lol. and i find myself encountering a cess pool full of high functioning retards of which i thought i had made it clear should count me out of their small minded circle of life. however, if one is ever curious as to why you have been removed from my limited social circle...refer back to my rantings. there are 3 basic reasons. it could be one thing or a combo of them depending on the removed in question. it would most likely involve the fact that for an unknown reason youve felt the need to talk down to me like a lesser than you type of person.because no one is better than anyone. we all have our fair share of life challenges. at one point or another we have all made some horrible mistakes and or found ourselves in some type of abusive situation...be it as the abused, the abuser, the self loathing abuser of oneself, or the un acting witness of a loved one being abused. some of us actually fit into all of the above. hence the saying dont throw stones if you live in a glass house however it goes. the second being the misguided assumption that i value myself not at all and my children even less to assume i find myself incapable of being with anyone that i do not already have children with. everyone knows u dont movebackward. and trust and believe i know im young enough and whatnot to find someone new if and when i want to. it may be that i have more important things than dating to focus on...for example making a future and being a mom. it may also b that i am unwilling to subject myself or the childrn to some new asshole that can treat us bad. or that i may start dating girls. or that i believe to my core that its wrong on a variety of levels to decide to try with someone else and force the children to go along with it because i want to be with someone who will most likely treat them shitty and choose someone else over any of them. if i do decide to date he or she will have no involvement with any child of mine on any level. and lastly, it is most likely the fact that you find yourself incapable of remembering that i do in fact have 4 children. 4 wonderful, amazing , beautiful children. all of which give me a reason to live. just because i am not married has not in any way made alex and kiara any less my children than the ever were. it doesnt matter now, nor has it ever, if im married or where the live or any of that...they are now and have always been the reason i get up each day, the reason i have changed my life in so many ways, there very forefront of my thoughts each and every day since the positive pregnancy test on dec 5 , 1998. nothing and no one has or ever will changed that in any way. and i would do anything moral or otherwise to ensure they are always safe and healthy and happy. and just because i now have nate and klo that doesnt change that. i am getting fed up with the idea that i have new children and have replaced them somehow. likewise; nate and klo are equally my children. nothing about them makes them any better or more important. and nothing about them makes them less important. not their other side of their family, not the fact that i am single , and certainly not their skin color or mixed genetic code. if you havent decided to get to know them based on these things then thats your loss. not mine. and certainly nothing they will miss knowing. and i will also equally protect them from any harm done, be it physical emotional or any kind. and again i dont care if its moral or or not or who likes it or not. the point is this: i dont give 2 shits what anyone thinks of me or my life choices or how i choose to parent. but if you lack faith in the devotion i have to any child of mine there is no use for u in my life. this isnt an argument. not a negotiation. it just is what it is.
Posted on: Thu, 17 Oct 2013 16:38:36 +0000
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